Isolation Phobia

2011年12星座爱情运势抢先看

2010-10-21T15:33:00.003+08:00

2011年12星座爱情运势抢先看

白羊座
今年你的感情生活就像发生在俄罗斯山脉一样的跌宕起伏。这一年，金星和土星的双重影响将会显著地推动你的另一半的思想表达和道德分量。因此，遇事多听听你另一半的意见，你会发现你将会很感激他的意见，这也会帮助你重新找到你各种关系的平衡。即使你在这方面并没有什么十万火急要解决的问题，你也会在将来避免很多。随着你内心思考的增加，你对爱情概念的认识也在逐步的完善，这会帮助你更加接近你理想的人或事物。金星的影响会帮助你更好的去理解以及圆滑的处理你和另一半的关系，甚至是你跟其他异性的相处。

这一年，你会在很多谈话和交流中受益匪浅。一些关于你内心的疑惑将会得到解释。假如你现在正处在一段纷繁复杂的爱情中，你将会有更好的姿态更加冷静的看待和处理问题。

你的另一半也会更加明白的表达他的想法，把他内心深处的想法告诉你。对你自己来说，最根本的问题就是明确你自己的目标以及如何去达到这个目标。

如果你是单身，你将会充满激情的去跟不少人聚会。在你人生今后的长路中，你将会有无数的可能去修正完善你自己，当然这些可能既有可能匹配你，也可能并不合适。

金牛座
你的爱情将比去年呈现更加愉悦的状态。你也将花费更多的时间去学会如何与爱情共存，怎么去创造和激发爱情，怎么去很好的维持爱情。
木星的影响会让你的情感学会释放朝着你内心真正感受的情感去发展。一些热烈的情感瞬间将会直接让你感受和经历，这些都会让你离你的梦想更近一步。你将会明白的认识到你对于自己还是缺乏足够的乐观和勇气，其实你的梦想已经在越来越近了。天王星与木星的双重影响将会给你的爱情带来更多的信心和机会。
如果你是单身，那么这一年意味着你要跟过去彻底的告别，迎来人生的新机遇，从2011年3月开始，你就将有很多的事情需要你去贯彻执行。很多的激情融入到你的生活中，让你自己做好准备全身心的去沉浸在感觉的世界中。
唯一应该避免发生的消极方面就是不要因为你自己的情绪改变而去影响你的伴侣或者合作者。这个问题需要你比以往有更多的重视和思考，但也并不意味着会给你带来很大的问题比如牢狱之灾，因为你的节制和控制会使一切得到平衡。

双子座
这一年中，激情和魅力将大幅的进入你的生活。你将会有一个全新的开始，或者为一个新起点做好准备。统治你天空的行星也会给你带来影响，会唤醒你内心深处对爱的渴望和需求不过你自己可以进行控制达到平衡状态，不会失控。
如果你处在一个十分复杂的感情状态中，你会自发的去探求事情的本质并将这一复杂局面变得简单起来。为了将这些幻想去伪存真，你需要更相信和坚持准确的直觉、严格的逻辑和真相。因此你可以有能力去观察和探询你所处状态的本质，同时为自己和他人做出一个正确的决定。
这一年中你的另一半将比去年更加的信赖你，这也使得你开始学习一下恋人之前的相处之道，虽然这些你其实一直没有彻底搞明白。你彻底厌倦了纷繁复杂的爱情，因为这样的爱情让你浪费了太多的时间而且让你很不快乐。
这一年中，金星的介入为你赋予了非常伟大的能力和个人魅力，尤其是在2011年的四月和八月之间。如果你现在是处于一段感情关系中，你会很自然的倾向于一些改变，也许是与家乡朋友的一些交流给了你启发。
但是要注意的是，太多的亲属之间的纠葛，可能为对你的感情关系产生一些不利的影响，这一点值得你注意去避免。

巨蟹座
在这一年中，巨蟹对于感情的态度比起上一年来要更加的隐退和静修。这是因为这一年中你可能没有足够的时间，也没有很好的机会去获得，或者你不愿意去分享一些你拥有的。因此，你不得不面临这样的境遇，回归到更多的静谧和隐修中，这段时间将从2011年3月开始。不过这段时间也将会使你开始更好的从新的视角来审视自己。你的伴侣吧在这段时间里会很好的理解你，值得你的信任，就像是你一个最好的朋友一样。
对于你感受到的东西，就大胆的说出来不要犹豫即使它看起来很是荒谬。判断事情的时候不要加上过多的附加值，仅仅从你的心出发好好感受你的心感受到的即可。
另一方面，金星的影响又会使得你更加容易与别人合作，但这样使得你要表达你的私人想法变得困难起来。这个方面你要善加利用，朝着这个方向好好努力，去超越你已经有的社会地位和形象而且从去年开始，你就会开始获得很多有用的信息，现在是时间你做一些剧烈的改变了！
假如你是单身，那么在2011的夏天，对你来说将会有很大的机会同时获得迷人而又稳定的爱情。但是这些机会往往只有在外面一些场合，甚至是娱乐场所获得，因此大胆的出去走吧，不要把自己缩在自己的小贝壳里。

狮子座
狮子今年的感情生活很有次序，随着一周一周到一月一月，逐渐的变化成为一个和谐迷人的大环境。的确是这样，木星在今年年初的推动力，将会鼓励狮子去施展自己的才华和魅力，任何人都不会无动于衷。内心的感受无法回避，你也会非常自然的感受到。
对于狮子来说，今年最有可能出现的情况是，可靠地自由将会更好的描绘出狮子的潜意识，也会给狮子的感情生活带来更多的安宁。因此不要冒险的去鲁莽的做什么，那将把你原来应该有的机会带走。你将会学到很多持久而有价值的东西，这是建立在你对自己的专业价值有更明确的理解的基础之上，这也是你一直坚信的基本价值，其他的那些也会回到你身上。
你的关系也会变得更加松弛，给变革以及不同的想法和交流预留出足够的空间。这段时间对你来说，不管你的状态如何，都是最理想的去跟其他人聚会相见的时候。你的耐心将会被奖赏，你可能会得到纯真的感情生活。
如果你正在等待什么结果，将会在年中得到答案。一些狮子座的人将会变得十分渴望去组建家庭走进婚姻殿堂，如果你来没来及做，那么一定要想清楚，多给自己一些时间来思考。一时的冲动或激情往往并不合拍，尤其是如果你有机会遇见其他人，所以不要轻易做决定，可以将这段关系缓和延长一下，直到你确定了你内心的想法为止。

处女座
今年你的爱情最大的特点是它能够产生温柔迷人的瞬间同时带着巨大的热情。另外，一定得占有欲会在你身上体现，尤其是假如你属于第二星区(这句不确定)。如果你是单身，激情将会狠狠的敲打你的心门，作为爱情的新人，从第一眼看来你的处境不是那么安全。今年年初，你可能会在诸如航海之类的活动中遇到一个人陷入爱河中，但是你对他的爱太有依赖性。要记住你爱情的环境越简单单纯，对你来说越是有利。
如果爱情太过盲目，你将缺乏足够的理性和逻辑，导致你无法做出影响你今后人生的正确决定。你应该强化你自己控制情感的因素，这样也可以稳定你的感情关系。
你的疑虑变得越来越准确，但是对你的负担也在减轻。对于你的另一半来说，在这一年的秋天，你的独占欲会降低，对你自己更有自信更加放松，你也应该如此或者必须如此。
如果你已经拥有一段感情，那么在感情的主导权上，只要你看问题够深刻，你就牢牢的把握着主动权。如果不是，那么只要你不要过于鲁莽也不会有问题。假如你是单身，你可能会迎来一段从友情发展而来的爱情，这样会加深你与你的另一半的沟通和交流。假如你独自的去承担一个聚会或者会议，你就应该好好感谢那些帮助你的朋友。

天秤座
这一年你会把自己完全的沉浸到甚至迷失于你的感情生活中，确实是这样。土星虽然通过给你创造出一种剧烈的情感需求来直接影响你，但是你可以依靠你的直觉去指引你正确的方向。你将会学习到怎么去比以前还要投入还要喜欢，因为你更加清楚的感受到什么样的行为能够去适应你的伴侣或者你想要相处或征服的人。你自己发生的改变也将迎来他们的果实。你整体的爱情气候将会是和谐美妙的尤其是在2011年的春天。
你的爱情将会因为你跟伴侣的更好沟通和温柔情感而变得更美好，你也将会有更多的内心资源区加强你和伴侣的关系，安居乐业，除非你失去了你内心里支撑你自己的情感。
假如你是单身，那么你将会理性的思考你的要求或者你想得到的东西。这段时间里头，这个问题值得你更大的关注，你应该学会如何去圆滑的处理问题抹去棱角，而不是表现的比你本身更加冷酷坚硬。
但是，在年中，你的爱情将会发生一些变化，你会面对许多非常基本的问题，要去面对一些抵抗和阻力，要去处理你和伴侣间的一些心计和手段，虽然问题很棘手，你也要努力的去取得进展。
一些预想不到的事情伴随着重新选择的机会将会到来，但你多多少少也有些死板的原则。
在这一年的最后两个月，事情将会变得更有变化性但是也会更加的乐观。发展壮大的机遇来到你门前，放开闸门大胆的去做去发展吧。

天蝎座
这年预计你会遇到感情风暴。的确，你处在一个情感周期的尾端，渴望看个清楚，甚至包括你的过去。你将翻过显然很重要的一页，但是下一页更充满希望，更有潜力。
你的成熟为你打开新的大门。不是说要换你的伴侣，许多事情这样变化的原因是来自你的表现。前半年会有重要的问题等着你回答。你会感到无法规避这些问题，而给出的答案的人不像是那个善于娴熟地应付自己问题的你。这次会更难，这需要你调动你的反应能力并且不要失去控制。要有信心，因为最初会出现搞砸的情形。
你会发现你们之间的幸福快乐在此之后会很快重新出现。同样的，你的吸引力也会直线上升，你周围的人尤其你的伴侣乐于同你交流，去接近你，这会让你吃惊。这样的结果符合逻辑，因为你已经成功地解决了在你周围的一些基本的问题。你会尝到爱情重又回到你的生活，长远的看你的感情生活会越来越清晰。

射手座
年初你的爱情音调会缓和。你会问自己许多问题，最后的答案绝不会简单。不论你单身或者有了伴侣，你将会碰到一些情形，或者加深你们现有关系或者为你开启一段结果会很美好的姻缘，前提是你有耐心等你的另一半去改善自己。
你的吸引力在提升，你的魅力，说服力不会有问题，你的表达于细微处见增长，情感会被感知。有人邀请你离开家参加节日聚会的话，一秒钟都不要犹豫，那将会是大显身手的好地方。年尾你会发现节日和爱情有关，聚会灯光绚丽多彩。明年的氛围适宜和解。
你感到应该追求自己的抱负并把它们用直接的方式说出来。你不会以貌取人，你将会和真正真诚的人为伴，从生活中美好的事情充分获益。你会变得温柔体贴，左右逢源又能做真正的自己。这年你和孩子的关系会很融洽。

摩羯座
在这一年，摩羯将会在感情领域中完全的倾向于安宁平静。摩羯渴望获得安宁就像在通货膨胀中获得平衡一样。摩羯将会感知到的境况会鼓励摩羯将手中虽然很基本但却阻碍摩羯寻求平和安宁的问题和工作转交给别人。从另一方面来看，摩羯又会对渴求安全和保护的另一半产生很大的吸引力。但是这一点摩羯要擦亮眼睛，虽然眼前对方的讨好会让你觉得很舒服。但是从长期来看，可能会给你造成很大的负担，因此你要想清楚哦。
如果你现在拥有一段感情关系，那么你的伴侣将会倾向于更加理解你的言行，而且你们私人的对话和交流可能会变得更有变数不够稳定。
摩羯的耐心会对这段感情起到积极作用，磨平感情的棱角变得更加平和稳固。你的自信也变得更加强大，而这份自信心将会帮助你保持冷静和理性尽管你的伴侣可能又虚伪又讨厌。
如果你现在处于既模糊又复杂的迷雾状态中，在这一年的春季，你将会学到很多。你学到的东西将会帮助你在作出事情的判断之前更明白更精确地看清楚这件事情的本质。
因此这一年里希望你能看明白事情的本质不要自相矛盾也不要重复去年里头犹豫不决的覆辙。

水瓶座
感情关系的稳定性将是你这一年的绝对重要事项之一。事实上，海王星的结合柔和地唤醒了你的恐惧担心，这将导致你在对伴侣的态度上采取防御性的反应。
金星在一定程度上影响着你的太阳，将支持你更浓烈地表达出你的爱意。此外，你还会开始承担那些你所作的改变带来的成果。年初，总的气氛很温和，你的爱也沾染着这种温和。你将有更多的资源以加强你的协议，同时也不会失去你爱情的强度。
如果你独自一人，你可以提出你的要求，在这方面，这段时期内的会议会达到你想要的结果。春季，你需要想办法使那些存在的棱角变得圆润，而不是显得更加尖锐，因为你自发的反应会更容易受到情绪的影响。但是，对于你的伴侣，如果他太全面的考虑那些，或者如果你在为这些情感问题买单，你也不要惊奇。如果你是单身，你会遇见非常值得记录的事情，将来可能会发生有希望的约会。
一见钟情不是神话你不会长时间地扮演好一个害羞的角色！在秋季，这些新的出发点将迫使你离开原有的储备，特别是从反面来看看你所担心的事。你吸引了那些能轻而易举发现你最隐蔽的弱点的人。

双鱼座
超出自己的本性去使自己的爱情更加理想化，双鱼这一年将会超越自己去具体实现自己的理想。这将会是自由的甚至双重的，不过你没有足够的耐心去制作电影尤其对于那些你从来没有测试过的拆卸分离细节。所以你可以完全的测试关于你需要的方面的困难，比如你的合作者或伴侣的独立性，他也许没能坚持自己的独立于自主，尤其在这一年的前三个月更加明显。关于你的这段关系，你自己应该客观的去认识你从中都得到了什么，尤其是哪些得到应该归功于你的伴侣。
因此在2011的前三个月里，你能够更好的去对待和利用所有的机会，因为在这段时间里，你将在情感领域有自己更大的影响力和个人魅力。
然而，由于土星的影响也有了不和谐因素，土星唤起了在你很久以前的那些被遗弃的泪水。即使没有非常遥远，你也会感觉到你有迫切的需要去确保你身边人的可信赖度。你要明白，这并不是一个做出彻底改变的好时期。
2011年接下来的一年中，你将会有清晰地改变，为了给这个改变搜集更多有用的信息。这一年，对于你身边的那些单身人员来说，也许会有值得你期待的相见，而且说不定还有异国情调，相信你不会后悔哦！

ps: i do not own any of the above information. it is taken from,
http://www.dianping.com/c/shanghai-Wedding-71146266.html

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2010-09-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

把悲傷留給自己 - 陳昇
曲︰陳昇
詞︰陳昇
編︰陳昇

能不能讓我　陪著妳走
即然妳說　留不住妳
回去的路　有些黑暗
擔心讓妳　一個人走

我想是因為　我不夠溫柔
不能分擔　妳的憂愁
如果這樣　說不出口
就把遺憾　放在心中

＊把我的悲傷　留給自己
妳的美麗　讓妳帶走
從此以後　我再沒有
快樂起來的理由

把我的悲傷　留給自己
妳的美麗　讓妳帶走
我想我可以忍住悲傷
可不可以　妳也會想起我

是不是可以　牽妳的手呢
從來沒有　這樣要求
怕妳難過　轉身就走
那就這樣吧　我會了解的

重唱　＊

我想我可以忍住悲傷
假裝生命中沒有妳
從此以後　我在這裡
日夜等待　妳的消息

能不能讓我　陪著妳走
即然妳說　留不住妳
無論妳在　天涯海角
是不是妳　偶爾會想起我
可不可以　妳也會想起我
可不可以 (x3)

how long.?

2010-08-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

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so much i wanna say, but i prefer keeping it to myself. what is the point of explaining when nobody cares~

一直以来都在坚持我的坚持，但又不知为何会感到遗憾，不知为了什么要一直坚持我的坚持。

tried so hard to be different from the crowd, but, realized we are no different when strip down naked! yes, you tried to be different through the way you dress yourself but when everything is gone, so are you! guess this is what i felt when i decide to remove my last 2 ear piercing. whether is it time to grow up or to simply give up being different.

being able to be comfortable and confident with my body is what i need learn now. 1 small step but a giant leap to being appreciative with the most basic and simple things available in life.

'we tend to forget who we are and what we want when all we do is trying to be that 'somebody' we want to be' - its time to simply be ourselves and learn to accept the differences in lives *j its not easy being yourself* it will come a day when someone really appreciates, you being yourself!

keep it up~

2010-07-31T02:08:00.002+08:00

keep it up~~~

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

2010-07-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

作詞：LARA 作曲：張傑

下雨天了怎麼辦我好想你
我不敢打給你我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音變得好熟悉
沈默的場景做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

so true!!

2010-07-02T18:55:00.001+08:00

处女座(Virgo)

都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。

所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人. 而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离'。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。

所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美'格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关于'花心'一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关于'聪明'不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。

处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。关于'单纯'处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于'幽默'都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于'迟钝'别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。关于'自私'处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关于'逃避'由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于'内涵'处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

sigh.

2010-05-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

i sat down for the 1st time whole heartedly mixed with fear and disappointment doing re-doing my afa tut. sigh. looks like its either i've been way too slack or the pace is just simply fast to catch. sigh.

need to flex my lifestyle a lil already junjie:(

but i still wanna go out, have steamboats, etc. HAHAHAHAH.

procrastinating!

2010-05-02T15:20:00.003+08:00

not that im here to blog but being the procrastinating me, drifted away from writing my resume cover letter. oh lord! give me the power and blessing to know how and what to write. *how great for selling myself in the resume!!* =(

almost stepping into week 3 but am still pretty slacked out and not motivated at all! gosh! FML` someone please remind me, push me, but don really shout and scold me for not revising/studying?

constant search for what i want, looking for solutions everyday, kinda blinded by how we want to get things done but overlook by how we can get things done. understanding from deep within, but i cant seems to understand even myself. so how could i ever understand the balance of people, matters and me? rushing to get by with days, as days drains like river down to the vast ocean. once we lost it, its pretty hard to get back to square 1. (just like we could not get back a pale of water that has been splashed out) i miss the times we had, the times we spend. i was never a person that really appreciates relationship between people. but i guess, the longing for relationship with people i met makes me think, what have done and not done to treasure each and every friendship that have or used to have. as life progresses into different stages, its really saddens me, for every friendship that could no longer withstand the test of time,trust and faith. still its this kind of spurge of longing and desires for, makes me looking forward and welcoming people into my life.

delicate the follow post to my bb: sorry for taking you for granted at times, sorry for being negligence towards you at times, sorry for not being sensitive enough for you. but you are still the 1, that i still dream of, think of, worry and concern for. forgive me for drifting away, and i hope you will still be my harbor that i can come back too, keeping me safe and sheltered.

monday black market blues

2010-01-11T22:00:00.003+08:00

finally decided to blog after a long holiday. i have got many things to pour out but guess every time when im actually at blog-ing it, i just cant seems to gather all thoughts well.

finally, bb and i have decided to speak of the evil. a topic that we have been avoiding because we still longing to see changes. now that we have start discussing about it, its time to live and let live=) the older we get, the more we see, the more we think, the wise we get! not letting it to pull us down, we have just gotta move on looking forward. cos life have got much more to offer than then missing on things that were history.

dance, and yes! we have gotten back to dance, after a real long break. at times you really just need to sit back and chilax and to see, realize and notice how people have been treating you. the friends you used to call, might as well be cut off because the way they treat you just doesnt seem a need to appreciate them as friends.

Never allow yourself to become the system you were trying to oppose! never comment things you hate and end up doing it yourself. or perhaps, human are made in a way that we pick on ugly things rather than appreciating the beauty. sigh! what a shame.

sometimes the more we see, the more tired, disgusted we get. it wasnt anybody's fault, but we just get to see the big picture. perhaps, it was a conspiracy for us to deal with. but times and again, i have decided to push it away, looking for easy way out. maybe i aint that great either huh.

but i definitely know how to hold my manner and will not say things to defame anyone or anything that is not true. its a principle that i truly hold on too and grow with it.

its easy to blame it on life, but never easy to start appreciate the flaws of life. god, make me a better person. for whom im now, and for whom i will becoming too. i really pray for enlightenment. the never ending of learning and growing of life, cannot be judge or grade just the marks, certificate i have had. the are simply just marks and certificate. in life where everything doesnt matter and nothing matters~

ahh. the light that i strive so hard to see. always blocked with envy, jealousy, anger, greed, lust, (i forget the rest) but i believe 1 day i will be able to obtain the way of life and the light that would lead my life..

for now, perhaps its time to start pondering why would i have seen so much and propaganda of things. perhaps and maybe .. ..

i shall post something funny to end this wordy post.
ger ; says:
hahha oki poki ltr i go read
say u love me k
hahhahahahahhahaha

i love you baby, geraldine~

fine dinning~

2009-12-07T13:54:00.002+08:00

fine dinning~

so high

2009-11-28T18:14:00.007+08:00

my dream is to fly~

bb and me are pretty much addicted to prawning. hence we had a last minute decision to prawn even thou the 1st outing to prawn with mel and boon fail. HAHA, the passion kept us going i guess. LOL.

decided to tryout the 1 at kovan, w obvious reasons of the near location and only the 2 of us. trying my luck, i phone mz, and yes. he came down with his mum. COOL dude!

here comes the amazing part, the highlight of the night! we paid for 3hrs. the time was up, but no one came to collect the rod. hence we cont to prawn for the next 3hrs. until we were so damn tired. if we are not, we would have cont to the morning man!

although we had 6hrs, but the catch wasnt much. big prawns are harder to catch as they tend to grab and play with the bait. so being gan chiong, we have hard time deciding when to ta-lek the rod, so most of the time, they ran away. DAMN! despite that, it is still a hell lot of fun time!

only 25catches that night.

baby~

yebbie!!! but its a damn bloody young baby yebbie!

about length of index finger nia. HAHA

located at former paya lebar swimming complex. quite a walk from the main road in. its nice and clean. they have 2 additional ponds to its initial 3 ponds.

likes: music was loud enuff to be hear, and not those fading in the background. they even have a drinking bar. cosy environment =)

dislikes: quite a walk to the prawning house and (always pray that, its not crowded!)

reggaeton!

2009-11-24T21:29:00.003+08:00

I HEART reggae-ton!

music for da' ears,
beats for da' feet,
groove for da' love.

for PEACE, LOVE, UNITY~

2009-11-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

time and tide wait for no one and here im standing still watching for the clock ticking away, tides come and go. phew! when on earth am i gonna start my revision?! SHINGZ man!!!

i should be sleeping!

2009-11-20T23:32:00.003+08:00

its 12am in the morning. i'm shutting down soon. i couldn't help but to think of you, with your arms around my neck and your face on my chest. from dusk till dawn. where time freezes and silent overflows. the peace within emptiness. the love within loneliness. that we are longing for ... with the clock ticking away and the silent overwhelming the room once again. i couldn't help but to think of you, with your arms around my neck and your face on my chest.

procrastination

2009-11-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

procrastination! sigh, no mood to do my tutorial! how! damn tired despite tonnes of sleep. although din really slept well due to the great movie, paranormal activity! wooo! thanks man! but its getting better and improving, not as bad as the 1st night. HAHA!

money money drop from the sky please!! =(

desires ...

2009-11-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

slave of desires. sort of gain little tiny bit of enlightenment on this issue. been working so hard to own something that in actual fact it has become a certain burden. such as buying expensive or branded items. after owning it, how many have actually use it without providing extra care to it. it is supposed to serve us in the way its design for. however owning such stuffs have actually caused us to serve it in a caution way rather than it providing its usefulness. what a shame?

but yet, to have desire is to have motivations in life. i know its contradicting but its the fact that every coin has 2 faces. unless you are a monk, that you have obtain the ultimate level of nirvana. to forgo all the fame, wealth and materials in life. impossible? i believe no, but definitely not the majority of us are able to do so.

how hard are you willing to work for the things that you desire for? or would you rather take it as it is! its definitely a good question to ponder on =)

have been repeating this statement recently, went to reflect and seriously thought through it. 'young generations (like me) of Singapore, are being pampered way too much. sort of implying that we have not experience such intensive level of hardship that our forefathers have had survived through.

it kind of struck to my mind when i thought of the saying 'the builders of the national, our young generation' true enough that in time to come, Singapore will be depending on us for break through, or at least maintain at the current standard of living. indeed, we are the ones who are experiencing the break through from all this years of transforming and evolution to the current stage of living that we are enjoying now. are we continuing to enjoy such privilege and taking such current state of living for granted? yes, government will definitely do their part and will not allow or sure enough continue to allow Singapore to progress and prosperous. to what extent is this degree of progress and prosperous going to be?

it can happen basically on 2 factors. 1) depend on our current young generations to contribute to the society in an appropriate way or 2) intensive importing of foreign talent. which are available abundantly. theoretically would be of cos, by option 1). people are a country's huge and important resource. i believe no one, not even a single soul would want an imported talent who is 'going' to complete with us for a job. here comes the 1 million dollar questions, how much are we going to work hard for to maintain such prosperous state of living we are having now?

SHINGZ! the erosion of our moral values and upbringing. im not implying that parents or school are not doing a good job for this. but comm'on, the earth is moving evry seconds on the clock. what works in the past are not true to work now. we have got to keep up with the pace.

the world doesn't just involves you and only you. its evolves around you and your surrounding environment. consideration and courtesy, what i believe to keep earth a great place to live in. comm'on we are the high civilize of human kind. there is definitely way much space to improve on this 2 factors.

alright, i know there are way many factors that can bring about good character building. but i aint gonna drill on it further. just simply wanna bottle out my thoughts.

perhaps its the culture shock i experienced when traveling. see travel is an eye opening to a whole new array existence in this world that we are stepping on right now! there are so much things happening right now, what about you?

those were the days.

2009-10-14T00:36:00.002+08:00

those were the days that are gone. those were the days of the past that will only be kept and be remembered in my heart.

been thru a tough and long break this time round. none of us can escape the reality.

wondering if i was just be plain stupid to make such decision since its coming to year end, and after being thru all these episode. i just wish to be happy with whatever im doing w/o any obligations to anyone. it seems selfish this way, that i only think for me and myself. i know much have been expected out of me. but passion, heart and energy seems to just dried up like an old century well. anything can be squeezed out anymore.

i really felt that i have been pushed to the edge and left w no idea how to and what to do with it anymore.

good luck~

ge tai

2009-08-23T00:48:00.002+08:00

若是饮饮来饮着好酒的梦
归眠着困真香
使人头抹重心抹烦
彼种感觉有够赞

若是饮饮来饮着歹酒的梦
归眠着困抹松
使人头会晕心会乱
彼种感觉有够惨

拢是饮酒块醉茫茫
感觉差别甲这大站
感情路上啊的冷暖
有时使人会胆寒

一个希望一个希望
啊阮的爱人伊的心内只有只有阮一人

Awww~ im crazy over ge tai!!!!!!!!

i am who i am

2009-07-13T10:02:00.003+08:00

dont be upset, junjie. i know its kinda disappointed to see that the surrounding people who just cant seems to understand or see as clearly and directly as you can perceived. i know its tough for you to hold on for this lonely fight. but, being different from the others does not conclude that you are a failure. you are definitely not a failure, it is simply just nobody is similar as you are. you should be honoured=) be proud and hang in there. dont give up for you are not the only one doing this alone.

remember: being different does not neccessary means you are a failure!

you must realise and always remember this very fact that there is hardly 2 of the totally similar person! nobody can be like junjie, and junjie can definitely cant be anybody else, yes!

pick up from here and move on. before and dont allow the depression to kick in, avoid it at all cost, because there is where my happiness and willingness to learn and committe too.

for this, you shall not be giving up hope. the ship anchor at the habour is safe, but that is not what ship is built for =)

the journey ahead is hard but are you willing to walk down and complete this very journey that no one else can understand and no any other places can provide.

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Dear Junjie, Your Life Path Number is 1. This based on below calculation:

Birth Date: 30-08-1988
3+0+0+8+1+9+8+8=37=3+7=10=1+0=1

Below are the analysis of life path number 1:

The Life Path 1 suggests that you entered this plane with skills allowing you to become a leader type rather easily. Your nature is charged with individualistic desires, a demand for independence, and the need for personal attainment. Many of our military generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path 1. When you display positive 1 traits your mind is capable of significant creative inspiration, and it possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. You are very good at getting the ball rolling; initiating new projects is your forte. You are at your best when confronted with obstacles and challenges, as you combat these with strength and daring. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. You have a tendency to do this, even if, at times, it is not appropriate for you to do so.

Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You tire of routine and highly detailed tasks rather quickly.

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its really gives me a assurance that everyone is different and never allow this to stop me from doing things that are purely and truely from the bottom of my heart.

baby: i know ya worried for my being too stress with everthing. well, im sure the above results explained all=) its just so natural in me that im not stressed out or what, but rather, i want and im wiling to put my effort in all i do for my own good. hope you have just know me yet 1 steo better=) LOVES~!

personality=)

2009-06-28T22:29:00.003+08:00

ISTJ

The Inspector
Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging
Serious and quiet, interested in security and peaceful living. Extremely thorough, responsible, and dependable. Well-developed powers of concentration. Usually interested in supporting and promoting traditions and establishments. Well-organized and hard working, they work steadily towards identified goals. They can usually accomplish any task once they have set their mind to it. Meet ISTJs

Life -

Your Identity
These are your MyType friends who have the same personality type as you. The ISTJ is your identity.
ISTJ Friends
None
Famous ISTJs
Thomas the Apostle
George Washington
Andrew Johnson
Benjamin Harrison
Herbert Hoover
George H. W. Bush
Queen Rania of Jordan
Jackie Joyner-Kersee
Evander Holyfield
Jack Webb
As an ISTJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things rationally and logically.

ISTJs are quiet and reserved individuals who are interested in security and peaceful living. They have a strongly-felt internal sense of duty, which lends them a serious air and the motivation to follow through on tasks. Organized and methodical in their approach, they can generally succeed at any task which they undertake.

ISTJs are very loyal, faithful, and dependable. They place great importance on honesty and integrity. They are "good citizens" who can be depended on to do the right thing for their families and communities. While they generally take things very seriously, they also usually have an offbeat sense of humor and can be a lot of fun - especially at family or work-related gatherings.

ISTJs tend to believe in laws and traditions, and expect the same from others. They're not comfortable with breaking laws or going against the rules. If they are able to see a good reason for stepping outside of the established mode of doing things, the ISTJ will support that effort. However, ISTJs more often tend to believe that things should be done according to procedures and plans. If an ISTJ has not developed their Intuitive side sufficiently, they may become overly obsessed with structure, and insist on doing everything "by the book".

The ISTJ is extremely dependable on following through with things which he or she has promised. For this reason, they sometimes get more and more work piled on them. Because the ISTJ has such a strong sense of duty, they may have a difficult time saying "no" when they are given more work than they can reasonably handle. For this reason, the ISTJ often works long hours, and may be unwittingly taken advantage of.

The ISTJ will work for long periods of time and put tremendous amounts of energy into doing any task which they see as important to fulfilling a goal. However, they will resist putting energy into things which don't make sense to them, or for which they can't see a practical application. They prefer to work alone, but work well in teams when the situation demands it. They like to be accountable for their actions, and enjoy being in positions of authority. The ISTJ has little use for theory or abstract thinking, unless the practical application is clear.

ISTJs have tremendous respect for facts. They hold a tremendous store of facts within themselves, which they have gathered through their Sensing preference. They may have difficulty understanding a theory or idea which is different from their own perspective. However, if they are shown the importance or relevance of the idea to someone who they respect or care about, the idea becomes a fact, which the ISTJ will internalize and support. Once the ISTJ supports a cause or idea, he or she will stop at no lengths to ensure that they are doing their duty of giving support where support is needed.

The ISTJ is not naturally in tune with their own feelings and the feelings of others. They may have difficulty picking up on emotional needs immediately, as they are presented. Being perfectionists themselves, they have a tendency to take other people's efforts for granted, like they take their own efforts for granted. They need to remember to pat people on the back once in a while.

ISTJs are likely to be uncomfortable expressing affection and emotion to others. However, their strong sense of duty and the ability to see what needs to be done in any situation usually allows them to overcome their natural reservations, and they are usually quite supporting and caring individuals with the people that they love. Once the ISTJ realizes the emotional needs of those who are close to them, they put forth effort to meet those needs.

The ISTJ is extremely faithful and loyal. Traditional and family-minded, they will put forth great amounts of effort at making their homes and families running smoothly. They are responsible parents, taking their parenting roles seriously. They are usually good and generous providers to their families. They care deeply about those close to them, although they usually are not comfortable with expressing their love. The ISTJ is likely to express their affection through actions, rather than through words.

ISTJs have an excellent ability to take any task and define it, organize it, plan it, and implement it through to completion. They are very hard workers, who do not allow obstacles to get in the way of performing their duties. They do not usually give themselves enough credit for their achievements, seeing their accomplishments simply as the natural fulfillment of their obligations.

ISTJs usually have a great sense of space and function, and artistic appreciation. Their homes are likely to be tastefully furnished and immaculately maintained. They are acutely aware of their senses, and want to be in surroundings which fit their need for structure, order, and beauty.

Under stress, ISTJs may fall into "catastrophe mode", where they see nothing but all of the possibilities of what could go wrong. They will berate themselves for things which they should have done differently, or duties which they failed to perform. They will lose their ability to see things calmly and reasonably, and will depress themselves with their visions of doom.

In general, the ISTJ has a tremendous amount of potential. Capable, logical, reasonable, and effective individuals with a deeply driven desire to promote security and peaceful living, the ISTJ has what it takes to be highly effective at achieving their chosen goals - whatever they may be.

Life -

Your Identity
These are your MyType friends who have the same personality type as you. The ISTJ is your identity.
ISTJ Friends
None
Famous ISTJs
Thomas the Apostle
George Washington
Andrew Johnson
Benjamin Harrison
Herbert Hoover
George H. W. Bush
Queen Rania of Jordan
Jackie Joyner-Kersee
Evander Holyfield
Jack Webb
As an ISTJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things rationally and logically.

ISTJs are quiet and reserved individuals who are interested in security and peaceful living. They have a strongly-felt internal sense of duty, which lends them a serious air and the motivation to follow through on tasks. Organized and methodical in their approach, they can generally succeed at any task which they undertake.

ISTJs are very loyal, faithful, and dependable. They place great importance on honesty and integrity. They are "good citizens" who can be depended on to do the right thing for their families and communities. While they generally take things very seriously, they also usually have an offbeat sense of humor and can be a lot of fun - especially at family or work-related gatherings.

ISTJs tend to believe in laws and traditions, and expect the same from others. They're not comfortable with breaking laws or going against the rules. If they are able to see a good reason for stepping outside of the established mode of doing things, the ISTJ will support that effort. However, ISTJs more often tend to believe that things should be done according to procedures and plans. If an ISTJ has not developed their Intuitive side sufficiently, they may become overly obsessed with structure, and insist on doing everything "by the book".

The ISTJ is extremely dependable on following through with things which he or she has promised. For this reason, they sometimes get more and more work piled on them. Because the ISTJ has such a strong sense of duty, they may have a difficult time saying "no" when they are given more work than they can reasonably handle. For this reason, the ISTJ often works long hours, and may be unwittingly taken advantage of.

The ISTJ will work for long periods of time and put tremendous amounts of energy into doing any task which they see as important to fulfilling a goal. However, they will resist putting energy into things which don't make sense to them, or for which they can't see a practical application. They prefer to work alone, but work well in teams when the situation demands it. They like to be accountable for their actions, and enjoy being in positions of authority. The ISTJ has little use for theory or abstract thinking, unless the practical application is clear.

ISTJs have tremendous respect for facts. They hold a tremendous store of facts within themselves, which they have gathered through their Sensing preference. They may have difficulty understanding a theory or idea which is different from their own perspective. However, if they are shown the importance or relevance of the idea to someone who they respect or care about, the idea becomes a fact, which the ISTJ will internalize and support. Once the ISTJ supports a cause or idea, he or she will stop at no lengths to ensure that they are doing their duty of giving support where support is needed.

The ISTJ is not naturally in tune with their own feelings and the feelings of others. They may have difficulty picking up on emotional needs immediately, as they are presented. Being perfectionists themselves, they have a tendency to take other people's efforts for granted, like they take their own efforts for granted. They need to remember to pat people on the back once in a while.

ISTJs are likely to be uncomfortable expressing affection and emotion to others. However, their strong sense of duty and the ability to see what needs to be done in any situation usually allows them to overcome their natural reservations, and they are usually quite supporting and caring individuals with the people that they love. Once the ISTJ realizes the emotional needs of those who are close to them, they put forth effort to meet those needs.

The ISTJ is extremely faithful and loyal. Traditional and family-minded, they will put forth great amounts of effort at making their homes and families running smoothly. They are responsible parents, taking their parenting roles seriously. They are usually good and generous providers to their families. They care deeply about those close to them, although they usually are not comfortable with expressing their love. The ISTJ is likely to express their affection through actions, rather than through words.

ISTJs have an excellent ability to take any task and define it, organize it, plan it, and implement it through to completion. They are very hard workers, who do not allow obstacles to get in the way of performing their duties. They do not usually give themselves enough credit for their achievements, seeing their accomplishments simply as the natural fulfillment of their obligations.

ISTJs usually have a great sense of space and function, and artistic appreciation. Their homes are likely to be tastefully furnished and immaculately maintained. They are acutely aware of their senses, and want to be in surroundings which fit their need for structure, order, and beauty.

Under stress, ISTJs may fall into "catastrophe mode", where they see nothing but all of the possibilities of what could go wrong. They will berate themselves for things which they should have done differently, or duties which they failed to perform. They will lose their ability to see things calmly and reasonably, and will depress themselves with their visions of doom.

In general, the ISTJ has a tremendous amount of potential. Capable, logical, reasonable, and effective individuals with a deeply driven desire to promote security and peaceful living, the ISTJ has what it takes to be highly effective at achieving their chosen goals - whatever they may be.

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Relationship -

The ISTJ's word is as good as gold, and they honor their commitments faithfully. They believe that to do otherwise would be nothing less than a breach of honor and trustworthiness. Consequently, they take their vows very seriously, and once they have said "I do", that means they are bound to the relationship until "death do us apart" or otherwise. ISTJs are driven to fulfill their responsibilities and duties, and will do so with tireless effort. They will do their best to meet the obligations presented by the different relationship roles which they play during their lives, i.e. spouse, parent, offspring, etc. They may have difficulty showing warmth, but they frequently feel it in abundance, and most develop the ability to show it through sheer effort. If nothing else, the ISTJ holds the gold medal of all the personality types for Effort. They will put forth tremendous amounts of effort to accomplish goals which are important to them. If healthy relationships are among these goals, you can bet that the ISTJ will do everything that they can to foster and maintain healthy relationships.

ISTJ Strengths
● ISTJ Strengths

● Honor their commitments

● Take their relationship roles very seriously

● Usually able to communicate what's on their minds with precision

● Good listeners

● Extremely good (albeit conservative) with money

● Able to take constructive criticism well

● Able to tolerate conflict situations without emotional upheaval

● Able to dole out punishment or criticism when called for

ISTJ Weaknesses
● Tendency to believe that they're always right

● Tendency to get involved in "win-lose" conversations

● Not naturally in-tune with what others are feeling

● Their value for structure may seem rigid to others

● Not likely to give enough praise or affirmation to their loved ones

ISTJs as Lovers

ISTJs are committed, loyal partners, who will put forth tremendous amounts of effort into making their relationships work. Once they have made a commitment to a relationship, they will stick with it until the end. They gladly accept their duty towards fulfilling their role in the relationship. ISTJs are generally willing and able to do anything which they have defined as a goal. So, if maintaining a good relationship is important to the ISTJ, they are likely to have a good relationship. If they have not added this goal to their internal "list" of duties, they are likely to approach the relationship in their "natural" state, which is extremely practical, traditional, and structured.

Sexually, the ISTJ is likely to approach intimacy from a physical perspective, rather than as a means of expressing love and affection. They usually have a problem expressing their deepest feelings, even though they may be very strongly felt. They will expect sex on a relatively scheduled basis, and are likely to honor traditions regarding gender role-playing. Male ISTJs will assert their perspective on their partners, while female ISTJs will tend to follow along with what their male counterparts want (although they will be uncomfortable with anything extremely out of the traditional norm).

ISTJs do not feel threatened by constructive criticism or conflict situations. When faced with criticism, the ISTJ is likely to believe that their point of view is correct. They have a tremendous amount of respect for Facts, and base their opinions on known facts and logic. Consequently, they have a hard time seeing the viability of viewpoints which don't match their own. When the ISTJ gets involved in a disagreement over a point, they usually begin to attempt to recruit the other person over to their own point of view, fully believing that they are right, and that the other individual simply needs to understand the facts of the situation. In such situations, the ISTJ may or may not be right, but their confidence in their own "rightness" can shake the confidence of others involved. This habit can quickly turn conversations into "win-lose" situations and can present a special problem in intimate relationships. While they may inadvertently shake the confidence of their colleagues with their "I'm right" approach, the same behavior may cause serious issues within their intimate relationships. The ISTJ's constant assertion of "rightness" may send a message to their mates that they do not value their opinions. If the ISTJ has a mate with a strong Feeling preference, they may inadvertently wreak havoc with their self-esteem, since Feeling individuals are extremely sensitive to conflict and criticism, and are especially vulnerable in their intimate relationships.

Since ISTJs make decisions using the Thinking function (rather than Feeling), they are not naturally likely to consider their mates feelings and emotions in daily living. This may be a problem if their mates have the Feeling preference, since Feeling individuals usually expect a lot of positive affirmation, which the ISTJ does not naturally communicate to them. ISTJs need to remember that others may need to hear that they are loved and valued, even if ISTJs don't need to hear this themselves.

ISTJs are generally very capable and efficient at most things which they endeavor. Consequently, their mates are likely to hold a good amount of respect for them. Daily concerns are likely to be well-provided for by the ISTJ. If other concerns, such as emotional needs, are pointed out to the ISTJ as important issues for their mates, the ISTJ will rise to the occasion and add the task of addressing these needs to the internal "list" of duties. Since the ISTJ is so willing to work hard at issues, and so tireless at performing tasks which they feel should be done, the ISTJ generally makes a wonderful, caring mate who is willing and able to promote a healthy, lasting relationship which is also a partnership.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, the ISTJ's natural partner is the ESFP, or the ESTP. ISTJ's dominant function of Introverted Sensing is best matched with a partner whose personality is dominated by Extraverted Sensing.

ISTJs as Parents

ISTJs are faithful and devoted parents who can be counted on to put forth their very best efforts towards raising their children in positive, comfortable, secure homes, and to promote their growth in such a way that they will become secure adults who know their place in life within our society. Such is the greatest goal of an ISTJ parent toward their child.

Along the path towards this goal, the ISTJ expects that their children honor their traditional familial roles. As parents, they demand respect and authority from their children. They willingly accept their parental role of provider and guardian. Once the ISTJ becomes a parent, it becomes a "given" that they will perform all of the duties associated with parenthood, and they will do so without grudge or burden. However, they expect that their children give them their due respect in return, and will have little patience with disrespectful behavior.

When it comes to giving punishment or discipline, the ISTJ will be able to do so when necessary without too much internal trauma. They see it as their duty to teach their children when they've done wrong, and so will administer the punishment in the name of the greater cause of doing their duty towards their children. Not to imply that the ISTJ will enjoy disciplining their children, they simply will put their duties before their personal feelings.

The ISTJ is likely to have a problem giving a lot of positive affirmation and support to their children. Having very high expectations for their own behavior and the behavior of others, the ISTJ often forgets to give praise when praise is due. All children need positive support as they find their place in the world, and this is especially true for children with the Feeling preference, who benefit tremendously from positive affirmation, and suffer (sometimes tremendously) in its void. The ISTJ who recognizes sensitivity in their child should take special care to give them positive support and affirmation.

The ISTJ will create a consistent, secure environment for their children, with definite roles and boundaries. Although this may at times create division between the parent and child (especially during rebellious adolescence), it will generally promote the child's growth into a secure adult. ISTJ parents will be remembered and honored by their children for being good people who always tried their best, and for putting the needs of their children above their own.

ISTJs as Friends

Although friendships do not rank highest in the ISTJ's list of important relationships (whose duties and obligation to the Family rank above all else), they do have value these relationships and put effort into enhancing and maintaining them. The ISTJ is likely to choose to be around people who have similar interests and perspectives to their own, and are likely to not have much patience with people who are very different from themselves.

Although their usual mode of being is very serious-minded, ISTJs like to have fun and let loose. They like being with Extraverts who are optimistic and fun-minded, although the E's enthusiasm may eventually get on the ISTJ's nerves. ISTJs can get along with most other types, but they especially form solid connections with other Sensing Judgers. The ISTJ's respect for laws and traditions may make them unable to relate well to Sensing Perceiving types, although they admire their carefree ability to live for the moment. And conversely, the Sensing Perceiving types may see the ISTJ's need for structure as too conservative or scheduled for their tastes. ISTJs seem to get along well with iNtuitives, although they cannot really relate to some of the iNtuitives perspectives.

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sucky day

2009-05-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

hold on to me, will you? =(

FUCK IT CAN?

2009-05-11T13:04:00.002+08:00

i seriously regret for being not strict with myself. i understand the need to give everybody a second chance. but times and times again, all i get is making myslef regret this very decision. i end up feeling sucky at the end of the day. so why do i have to soften my heart and compromise with you?!

can i seriously just fcuk it?

fcuk the fever in me right now. no chance to be sick! arghh~

PS: dont talk to me if you feel you are obligated too! dont entertain me if you cant find topics to talk to me. BECAUSE THE VERY FACT WHAT I DONT LIKE AND NEVER LIKE TO entertain PEOPLE~ cant we talk because we want too and not we have too?

do it because you want too and not because you have too!

depression

2009-05-09T00:47:00.002+08:00

depression.

tired

2009-05-04T13:15:00.002+08:00

why all this trouble. im tired over all this that doesnt seems to come to a solution. time and time after, things wasnt change. how long more?

im losing faith anc confident now. there is so much things happening within me that i can no longer think for just myself.

i cant seems to fit the shoe, im dragging it around. maybe i wasnt fit for the bill after all.

make myself worth it, not just making 'it' worth for me.

acceptance

2009-04-27T11:22:00.002+08:00

dont become the system you trying to oppose.

our fate is control by our hands. i will never allow anyone to ruined my future.

no just for myself, but also my love one. for no one shall have plans for us except the plans we had for ourselves.

'just accept and dont oppose'

if i cant accept and cant oppose, leaving the system seems like the only choice.

im not dumb. for every simple conversation we had, i discovered all the filthy lies after lies to cover each lies and lies.

i will never know what's the holy plan. but i can by all might find out the reasons why. dont leave me guessing. dont leave doubting, for all the pieces of truth i see and hear are leaving you drowning in your whirpool of lies.

fair and equal for all my people. what will you do to protect your own people?

why not you 'just accept and dont oppose' =P

i believe in you geraldine =)

2009-04-22T23:21:00.004+08:00

i believe its time that i have a real good change for the better. let's be more positive about things going on rather than keep bitching around in my blog. i need a real good attitube from now. its for my good, its for us, geraldine.

for you, i'll change. for our future, i must change! thanks for the faith you have seen and trusted in me all this while. for i shall never let you down again=) we will be fair and positive towards everything from now. may we have strong faith in each other because we know what is best for us.

you, me, us. for nth will tear us apart. because for our future we work, for the happiness we shall enjoy together!

thank you geraldine for filling up colours to my life. you are the greatest i could ever request from god~

('love' is like walking down a corn field once and to pick the biggest corn you can see. when you believe you saw a big corn, will you pick it up and return home or will you insist that there are bigger corn down the field that you have yet to discover? but once you walk out of the corn field and did not pick up the biggest corn you saw just now. will you regret? for time will never turn back for you.

i have saw and picked my big corn. how do i know, because i believed in myself. i treasure and im contended~!

feel it?

2009-04-19T00:57:00.002+08:00

teach me how to 'feel' it. no matter how hard i tried, i just cant get it. im envy im jealous im what?

its tiring being in so many roles and seperating clear lines in between. im breaking down. i change because i want to not because i have to. im just too lazy to explain myself to you. understanding me if for me to know and for you to find out.

i guess i have seperate everything too clearly that becomes hard for people to follow up with me. like ive said, my best are kept for those with me. feel free to know me by the hard way. i wouldnt reject.

for things need to be done will done and shall be done! by hook or by crook.

'feel' it. yes, feel it. if its out of willingness, where is my appreciations? if its my duty, its your responsiblity for my duty. yes?!

not free lunch in this world. you want it you prove it. not by word of mouth but by the actions of devotion. all can dream, but who actually put their dream into reality using the most practical realistic way, diligent!

PS:today i cried. a better man tml. wu junjie misses geraldine tay shu wan baby~

birthday coming~!

2009-04-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

for some unknown reason, i keep saying my birthday is coming! HAHAHAH

so much so

2009-04-03T02:50:00.002+08:00

for so much i've realised and work for, in past till today.

i guess it does pay off 1 day. and im super glad even if its for just 1 day=D

your are doing great.

keep it up junjie! woohoo~

the trying(s) and learning(s) will never stop(s)~

traffic light

2009-03-31T14:45:00.002+08:00

red light flashes. we stop...

green light flashes. we gotta move on! go go go~ don get stuck and block the whole f**king road.

thank you.

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2009-03-31T02:41:00.002+08:00

... ***deleted due to exploict content***

if you know its you, jolly well learn the rules of the game and play with it. yes? that is the only way to stay in the game. still remember who is conducting this game? yes! clear as crystal aye.

no bitching. straight talk.

free lunch!!!

2009-03-29T01:33:00.003+08:00

work for what you want. nothing comes for free. respect and trust needs to be earned, and once lost it is often hard to restore. freedom to do something comes with a burden of responsiblities.

life is never fair, and karma searches it's way to you. not for now, but for the right time it will be. for all have eyes to see and heart to feel.

i work my way and discipline for all it takes. my best are kept for those with me. as i'll never fake a smile with motives behind it.

naked soul but sophisticated mind it can be. for knowing your enemy is half the battle won. observe me and reflect yourself. for what to improve and that to quit.

thanks for improving and strenghtening me. for a better man i've became and what goes around comes back around.

that life is never fair, be it you like it or hate it. take it or leave it is not the question. acceptance is what it takes.

respect and trust is often given, but did you actually managed to treasure it. till the very second where you destroyed everything right in me.

for what goes up must come down. that the world is still equal and you are the one choosing your fate to be.

--- for the respect and trust i've yet to earn, you have nothing in the world to lose. for the disrespect that i've received. i have nothing in this world to lose, but for a better person next i'll see ---

for my actions based on respect and words build on trust... ... ...

thank you for being a reminder of what i'll never be.

after comp. camp stuffs.

2009-03-18T21:49:00.005+08:00

what goes around comes around what goes up must come down.

im fcuking troubled by interpersonal relationship. i hate to be wronged, and take unneccessary blames. because i work hard to keep myself disiciple and maintiain my own effort in whatever i do. however, im beginning to wonder, who and what is it for? it start off, with a very own personal devotion and sacarifise of my time for the club. im doing it because i have the opportunity too and im willing to take up the challenge.

you cant expect that since you are here all the time and that the opportunity roll towards you! comm'on. if everyone were to have this naive mindset, then would everyone take everything for granted isnt it?! what is fair and what is unfair, who and what is the measurement? everyone has eyes to see, i have my own judgement, we have met and been tgt for going 1 year. hvn i seen that much stuffs of you? and jolly well believe that you will be an angle for that 3 days?

its never possible to please everyone. by creating more fuss out of it, is simply making yourself look more ugly and nth good comes out of it.

enuff said. stop dwelling and winding yourself away. i've always and still treat everyone with basic respect, treat me with fundamental respects and trust me, i will never make things difficult for you =D

you screww me up, you are 1 leg stepping in your grave.

play with the 'right' person and never offend the 'wrong' person.

let's chill. sit back and relax on a few pics. haha, not much. for more, please search in facebook =P

presenting to you! Ms Geraldine =PP

alicia, ck, geradline and junjie *after comp, changed and ready for dinner buffet=D*

NPDS~! thank you teacher melvin and teacher sharon and thank you mr chia! without you guys, there will never be us!!! *tonnes of appreciations beyond words to describe and tears shall represent it ='(* heehee

6th in grade E cha, deep down our hearts *we are v satisfy with the result*
PS: look closely behind us, Mr Chia, the principle of NP. guess what! he remember me and the number tag! we had a super tiny winy chat at NP carpark, while on my way for dance~ is this cool or what! haha.

prize presentation

you are my happiness and dance is the key for me to unlesh all great times we had together~! *we will walk in field of golds*

burned!

2009-03-04T16:17:00.002+08:00

awww. sun burned! went tanning on last sun and endded up a uber sun burn. now in emergency resecue to save my badly damaged skin=( bought a new bottle of nivea lotion *for sentive skin* haha, as i have alr finish both my old aloe vera gel and nivea lotion. argh. i can feel the skin crumpling tgt and its itchy! ahhh.

looking forward for dance tml, and meanwhile, im checking out stuffs and places in japan to gera to get them for me during her holi!

PS: there is an interesting shop!!! lovuuu it!

geessss. im fcuking itchy now, *away for a lotion bathe=D*

wow~

2009-02-20T22:33:00.002+08:00

dance it ~
fweeling it ~
letting it go ~
controling it ~
performing it ~
&
enjoying it ~

ahhhhh~
orgasmic. hahaha.
i wanna dance~! ser-Y-iously looking forward to end of exams! meanwhile, preparing hard to exams and cant dance. wooo~ you know when you are being deprive from it, the urge become intens and strong. maybe its a good thingy to be kept away for a tiny winy while, letting the mood slowly boils up and boom~! exploding~!
orgasm at its best~!
hahahhaha~

TO EXPRESS & TO IMPRESS

what more can i say?

2009-02-18T00:28:00.002+08:00

Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubts. Some things should be left and remain unsaid.

enough said. thank you.

baby came over for revision but how much did she actually accomplish? i dono. haha. ask her yourself. as for me, i completed a set of Blaw paper. still got 3 more topic to revise.

headed school for collection of baby's new dance costume! well, it aint what she and i expected it to be. after much much enlightenment and consolation. she did agree with me that the fact was it is still v nice!

inspired and motivated to dance, gotten some ideas to incorporate into our routine=)realised we cant stay off from dance even just for 1 week! haha. study and exam break 2 weeks! gees~

PS: baby, im sorry. im trying my best to improve and learn. i hope you forgive me and be patient with me.
thank you.
loves~

monblues

2009-02-16T18:15:00.002+08:00

officially the start of examination week =P not bad progress today, started off my revision quite well? ahaha. it was perfect with those break for tibits and naps. woo! studying nv felt so great huh~ haha. and as im here blogging with 1 hand and another holding my bubble tea. wah lao eh, like holiday liao lor! argh. ignore me, im having eating disorder everytime i feel stressed out and should i be fortunate or upset to have my still pretty well maintained figure dispite of all the meals and snacks and drinks down to my tiny winy tummy =P be jealous! hahah~

looking forward to tml, because baby is coming over. its the best time to see her when im burying myself or going through tough time like studying? hahah. whatever, just gald to have her and be able to spend time tgt with her =P

~ play with the right people and never offend the wrong person ~

daily quotes.

2009-02-15T00:57:00.000+08:00

Emotions ruin your judgement,the true enemy is within you.

Vday

2009-02-15T00:34:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentines day~ unusual day spent with geraldine and her mum. *yes, her MUM=)* haha. had Mcdonald breakfast be sending her off. it might is a simple meal, but i really treasure the time spend together. knowing how much geraldine cherish her mum and i being able to be acknowledge by her mum. was definitely a wonderful thing that happened to both geraldine and me, best of both world=)heehee.

collected my dance custome! and me being a noob, din realise that the sleeve was seriously too loose. ahah. fortunately, i showed it to teacher mel and teacher sharon, both did agree that the sleeve was too loose. came home, showed to my sis, and gotten the same respone too!!! guess, i shall have it alter then=)

it might not the the nicest custome or it might be similiar to some of the seniors but its different in COLOUR and definitely different in material too. most of all its my very 1st dance custome and i feel great=) *well, at least i just have to get the sleeves altered and be done with*

exams coming, followed by dance competition. *1 word, STRESS~ oh oh. well, will settle the ones that comes first, which is exams.

PS: to my dearest bb~
although we might not be great dancer, but with all the effort and hardwork we had sowed, it shall be the time we reap our harvest! no matter what, be happy, have fun and enjoy all the moment of it=)) our routine is getting better=P *JIA YOU~

good luck and all the best to all~! *do well in whatever you do*

13th!

2009-02-13T00:46:00.001+08:00

ITS

FRIDAY

THE

13th~!

everybody has got eyes to see who is the 'devil'.

monday, dss/

2009-02-09T12:21:00.002+08:00

been traumatised by nightmare for consecutive nights!=( but managed to get back to sleep. dreamt a lot and couldnt rememeber a single thing. but 1 event seems to turn out the way it happens in my dream. gees.

feeling kinda upset and depress when i cant feel the happiness from within. i miss that enjoying moment. it slip away times and again and seems like i have lost it. the need to 'feel' that again. what and how should i do?

been thinking and considering about the factors surrounding it. i couldnt seems to be certain about it. is it because i start off doing 'it' for you instead of for myself? it about 2 person, not me/ guess im stress and forcing myself too much. hence, being too agressive and dominant and causing you to suffer unknowningly=(

i know the answer, i hope im able to work it out=)

right now, its DSS. test at 4.15. good luck to all and myself!

i want... i WANT~!

2009-02-04T11:54:00.002+08:00

i wanna be more sexy.
i wanna tease and be teased.
i wanna indulge myself in it.
i wanna improve my DANCE~!

dance competion on 14th march, Hougang CC! when mel break the news, i was like *hmmmm* trying to kid me right! he then use a v serious face and repeat that the venue is at Hougang. haha. then i bust into laughters, cos its super uber freaking near my hse!!! *woooohhooo*

but before that, major exams are up 1st=(( sighssssssssssssssssssssssssss~

start revising or i should say studying! *note the diff* haha. and practice double hard for dance! i wanna win sth awards lor. haha. *i hope* *i believe* *i will* *we can*

and as for right now, lunch time!!!

projectsssssigh

2009-01-23T09:15:00.001+08:00

1st of all~ *drum rolls* i have been promote to be in the DS committee under events. *claps&waves&smiles&hand shakes* well, some would say, haha, enter committee only do those extra shitty jobs that usually nobody wish to do. *rather negative* but im not affected by it though. its where my passion lies, going an extra mile for the things that i like/love doing is rather enjoyable and definiately giving me a sense of achieve.

however, im kinda afraid what lies ahead, the fear of the unknown and the joy of the upcoming promising days. arggh. i feel as if im swirling in a blender. nevertheless, i really wish to see DS grow to become more DISCIPLINE, respect and acceptance! i do not know how to go about it, but i know i have to somehow and some way=)) *i know i can and i will* (power of imagination) oh oh. MC MC *ma chiam ma chiam*

projects deadline coming, uber busy with project this week. 1 more week to go for DSS and then final exams. pheww, that would draw an end to our freshie year. hahah. looking forward to year 2 DS camp!

Dance is the hidden language of the soul

'love' the fuel for my passion to dance~

love you baby~!

sunday

2009-01-18T19:26:00.008+08:00

feeling sick again!!! slept early last night, for over 12 hours from 8.30pm to 10.10 am. HAHA. uber power, but not shiok leh! *cos still feeling sick* arghhh~

been doing bmgt and dss project the whole day. have yet to revise for maec!=((

gonna have dinner and then revise maec, provided that i can absorb ba=X

some over due pictures=))

@ FEP

sadded face~

check our special order mega mega macspicy burger!!

NP mate, current classmates, TA08, on zaid birthday~

SMILE even when the sun is crying and the rain is dancing.

cheers people, at the midst of mugging and project-ing, please take grestest care as, of cos CNY is arriving in a week times+)) *but totally no feel of it man*=(( and DEADLINES & EXAMS are round the corner=((

tummy on strike and i shall stop here *dinner time baby*

spring cleaning

2009-01-17T17:33:00.010+08:00

NP SRING CLEANING at clementi west BLK 405 & 406!
i seriously have no intention of joining for the sake of CCA points neither do i join because i am kind or helpful! initially because the whole class was so enthu and all classmates agreed to join when mr nathan (MAEC tutor and adviser) pop the notice to us.
therefore considering that i haven't been bonding with my new classmates very well. i seriously thought this will be a wonderful chance to catch up with them, hence i decided to also say YES! haha.

they are funny people just that, it takes a spark for spur up the convo. and so, after the brifing and re-grouping cos jasmine didnt turn up!!! and pei yi being in no group, joined us. and just was we collected the cleaning solutions and making our way to blk 406 which is a park across. mr nathan intro to us a guy, johnathan, and he will be joining our group for the cleaning. he is one hell of a cool dude man! i swear~ *in good words=) not vulgar) he was borned, raised in US and his parents are taiwanese. just graduated for university doing major in economics, working for 2months at The Wall Street as a consultant for some stock thingy *cannot rem what that exact words was that* he came over SG simply because his work is too demanding and he wants a break! haha. his reason for leaving was "he wants to visit his heritage" *well done* *claps* haha. so here he is, working as a tutor in NP in economic moledule. he is 22, which is 1yr older than me! haha. he is super nice and helpful, easy going, easy to talk to and the list goes on... it was a enjoyable time together with him!

back to the cleaning!! haha. 1st house we went, NO ANSWER=( 2nd hse we went was scary! being the amature with totally no experience knocking on people's door! we were stunted and shocked, when the door was open and how the aunties act/react. in short, she rejected our help, saying she doesnt need it. which means, we have nothing to do!! *cheers & jumps &claps* FAT HOPE man. we went back to blk 405 where our meeting point was, and explained what happened and bah bah bah....

cont from the bah bah bah... *** ours 1st house, mr leong! haha. as thats what they told us, 'go to mr leong house', so we know okayy! 10-118 *still rem!* a super nice but lonly old man, gees, he is 78 alr man! being such old, he hardly cleans the floor and thats why we are there for the JOB man~! YEAH*** we were being told to only do 3 items, clean the windows, sweep/mop the floor and wash the toilet. but we went on for an extra mile, to swipe the funiture like table and chairs=))) he lives on the 'income' given by the 'helpers' *cant recall the organisation name* which around 300, his dinner is being taken care of by the 26bucks per month that delievers packet food for his 3 meals. according to him, from our convo, he wasnt married, so i guess, its must be terribly lonely for him being alone at such an age=(( after all the hard work, we also distribute free rice and canned food and a NTUC voucher for them. he totally appreciated us for everything! and of cos, we strongly felt the great SENSE OF ACHIEVEMENT~***

with that, we feel more high in morael and confident. we move on to the next house! a middle aged couple (ard 40-50+) funny and nice uncle & aunty. cleaning and chatted along the way. but what we heard was terribly sad, as the aunty was down with illnesses, not normal kind of sickness we have, she have to depend on medicine everyday, have blood transfusion everynow and then, as her organs aint functioning well and were defective! it was really v saddening, but of cos, we kept our emotions well and keep the convo in a healthy way, by encouraging and cheerful way~ =))) last but not least, the MILK! i will rememeber this MILK forever. cos no way on earth will i be possisble to drink tt again! i read the wordings on the can, i cant really comprehen what it says, but i saw this words "renal bah bah bah". i believe, its some kind of MILK for patients. nevertheless, being brought up and polite, we aint suppose to reject what is offer to us by any elder. hence, there goes our 1st mouth, and gees, its vallina favour and, and, and here comes the most exciting part of the whole story!!!! it doesnt taste weird, but ITS SUPER THICK and has a very strong heavy taste. HAHA. i being wanting to get over with it fast, gulp it down in 5 mouthful and ends the pain. gees *am i suppose to be greatful or guilty* so we left after the distributing of the free food and voucher.

went down to report, hang ard, took some pictures, but i do not have them yet! so I PROMISE TO POST ONCE I GET IT=)))

fooled ard, and was being requested to go on mission again~ woohoo~ 3rd house, young malay couple, din really talk much this time round. didnt know why, but yeah. haha. basically performing the cleaning and off we go. by the time we wait for the lift, its was 1PM! this event was held from 8.30 - 1pm. WOOOHOO~ you know what it means? its lunch time, food provided, aint the delicious food around, but, you know its suppose to be for a good cause. so NO COMPLAINTS~

rest of the mates went off to catch red ciff, while shilin, dennis and me choosed to head home.

phew!~ super long post, i know im v long-winding but cant help to that=(
well, as a rewards for reading such a long post, i should really post some pictures for entertainment sake! if not, nobody will continue visiting my blog=(((

THE SLICE @ Far East Plaza level 1, next to the toilet, but its a super nice enviroment and its NOT dirty~

over due pic, at NTUC after geraldine's class BBQ outing

over due pictures, re-deco DANCESPORT notice board!!

my tattoo idea! its a musical note as you can see *obviously*

RANDOM pictures~!!!!!!

last but never the least!!! my baby~

LOVE YOU BABY =P

MYOB=(

2009-01-15T09:08:00.003+08:00

FCUK MYOB! of i hv yet to do a single shit for it~ *screwed*
~junjie is currently hating school! shit it man~

beginning to start practising hard for dance again, was kinda slack over it. 1 plus month to the 1st competition in 2009! really looking forward to it, cause we will be making our very 1st own costume *woohoo~!* not like last year, damn ah hai! *noob*

that girl is none other than geraldine *obvious* {grins)

well, the power of imagination is good! stop dreaming and start to imagine. *i IMAGINE my MYOB is done up and fcuk out* argh. forget it, Blaw re-test later on. ahhh. fcuk man~ why did i woke up on the wrong side of the bed today! shit day. only thing to look forward is DANCE. *beginning to wonder if i have neglect my studies for dance?* but its 2 different topic what, cannot be compared.

~time to ciaos~ project meeting is the new trend! *dope* cheers dudes~!

holidays!

2008-12-16T14:30:00.003+08:00

common test is over for good. 3weeks of holidays till yr 2009! X'mas is coming New Year is coming so is 1yr anniversary coming *hurhur* where everybody will be celebrating for us! how cool right!! *oh oh*

holidays are boring staying home! and i guess i wun be working. preparing for dance later. finish private rumba, i love it. v nice okay! even nicer after we mastered it. hahah @_@

alcohol is a kill! st james ladies night this wed anyone?

11th month anniversary

2008-12-02T13:13:00.002+08:00

pericing is ADDICTIVE~!
shopping is ADDICTIVE~!
money is always not enough~!
wishlist forever accumulating~!
be contended, J!~

gotta seriously stop my spending (unnecessarily)

OUCH~! it seriously makes me both orgasm and pain! *nothing can ever replace it*

year 2008 is coming to an end! *im so lazy to blog, cont next post can?*

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fucked up frens

2008-11-23T23:30:00.003+08:00

life is stressd! have a good laugh for those who visit my blog=) i know its a boring blog. i din update it with fansatic, nice pictures and its usually wordy posts. nevertheless, i do have surpries once in awhile. HAHAHAHA

lesson learnt:

1. the need to always draw my line clear. i really cannot entertain misunderstandings.

2. need to be stronger in my own thoughts. don be easily influence.

3. time management. HAHAHA. as usual, who doesnt have this prob! arghh.

4. grow my own 'CHEESE' so i dont have to look for it and be self-sufficient!! WOOO~

friends come together because of something, an objective. when we are on the diff pages, things simply wun work out. it can be/might be due to misunderstanding or miscommunication. but i have seen and had enough. im not pin-point on person, im against the matter at hand. we just aint mean to club together. anything and everything except club.

i dont mind be alone, while you guys enjoy. cos we have diff objective on mind. but i felt that i was being cheated to go. if you don have extra cash or don wish to lend me. just reject me at the beginning. why fcuking DUAN me when we reach there.

the issus at the coffee shop, i kept quiet because i know i sure quarrel and make the whole atmosphere fcuking bad and weird for the night. im there to enjoy and relax not to end up in a stupid conversation.

'we spend on what we like', dont you spend money on your own clothing?! then dont jolly well make remarks about other peoples' spendings. as if their should be crucify for that!

i kept quiet doesnt mean i dont you were talking about me and our objective in mind is just too different. so nothing against your character or personality. just count me out for club from now=)

phew... what a post? sigh. there was once, i visited a 'future teller' he told me to carefully choose my friends because im easily influence. i knew i have this problem all along because im dependent on friends, thus leads to easily influence by them. i have been fussy and picky over friends issuse over the years too. guess im more self-centered and narrow minded. but whatever it is, if i cant accept who as you are for specific reason/matter, i will just cut you out=)

monday blues~ nope. im still feeling blue from yst. HAHAHA. chill luh junjie. live strong!

ps: dear sweetie,
i know im not expressive or not good at expressing and to make things worst, im a bad listener! thats why we always end up in quarrel=( but whatever happens, i still care for you, and i really love you.
am telling you this, cos i felt that i didnt tell you enough of how much 'i love you'.

'I Love You'
junjie~

who moved my cheese!!!!!

2008-11-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

Lessons Learnt

Change Happens
They keep moving the cheese

Anticipate Change
Get ready for the cheese to move

Monitor Change
Smell the cheese often so you known when it is getting old

Adapt to Change quickly
The quicker you let go of old cheese, the sooner you can enjoy new cheese

Change
Move with the cheese

Enjoy Change!
Savor the adventure and enjoy the taste of new cheese!

Be ready to Change quickly and enjoy it again
They keep moving the cheese

private rumba

2008-11-16T01:26:00.002+08:00

rainbow after the storm. talk real much with baby today, in seeking deeper understanding on the both of us. different, the word to describe us. so different in character, attitube yet bondying us tgt. it must be some kind of uber wonder miracles!=)

whatever goes up must come down. what goes around comes around. 'you just gotta be yourself, junjie' but how? how to be myself?

Soul. Heart. Mind. Respect. Love. Risk.

i want enlightenment. i want nirvana. many questions that needs to be ask! i gonna start fasting and praying~~~

*seek the truth* be yourself.

love junjie and love you baby. thank you~!

had private rumba today, steps are tough for me. really need to practise lots. jia you junjie. dont stress, enjoy it. have patient and soften temper. had dinner with baby and baby's mummy at ding tai feng. uber nice! pity that i kinda rush both hot and cold food thus ended in super bad tummy ache! am feeling alrights now. hope baby feeling better and recovering.

to baby if you read this: 'when times are good, we have funn and funn and more funns. when time have changed and everything wasnt that great and bright, stop and think of yourself. for i will never bear to see you shed a single tear for me. hold on tighter for the storm and waves shall not seperate us apart!'

always in you heart,
your dearest baby,
junjie.

PAIN

2008-11-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

it hurts to see you suffering. you really being stretch too much, you have reach your limits. i cant give you the best thing in the world. you deserve much better. and yet, i dont have the courage to bring it up to you. is this really the end of the journey?

you were the one i go too when i feel troubled. now who do i go too when im troubled by you?

fcuk loneliness. screw my depression.

whatever.

2008-11-03T08:50:00.002+08:00

it happens again. early morning. sucky feeling.fucked up mood. shooo people. dont come near me.

& i dont feel like talking.

31th oct 08

2008-11-01T01:07:00.002+08:00

halloween is over but its teacher SHARON's birthday!! *greetings and wishes*

did our dance item at NP@45! our very first official performance. well, there are definitely room for improvements!! i wonder how desmond get the seniors to be so discipline, as compared to the juniors! well, things will get better!=))

headed down to michelle hse immediately after the item. bus-ed, and was uber rush! to gino, if you read this, next time please enter throught the side gate! its directly in front of the terminal!

celebration was uberly fun, loud and full of sabotage as uausl. haha. got a few complaints and =(( ... i must say its definiately an excellent time bonding with everyone!! ever since the dance camp=)) great that seniors were very open and sociable! beginning to feel the family-ness of NPDS. hahah (feels kinda weird to express this out, especially, from a guy)=X

last but not least, and before i end, i would like to greet baby happy 10months anniversary! i took you for granted and make you feel neglected at times. i din realise the importance until i feel that im lossing it. i hope i can be better for you at dance. may you continue to be my partner and love you always.

with lovesss
jun
(will post pic when i receive it)

emo?

2008-10-24T17:38:00.002+08:00

its friday! and i have got no plans=( cos im broke, thus am not heading anywhere else. stay home and emo? tuning in to jrock recently, the stupid feeling is getting back. hope it doesnt get worst.

struggles with everything. really hope i can cope with it mentally and physically. thoughts of giving up this always there. can i just end my life but life is precious. but who the fcuk gives a thought that its precious and shallnt end it when they feels dark. dark and deprived. alone and lonely. courage, confident and fcuk my sensitivity.

i dont feel like blogging any further. a part of me wants to bottle out my feelings and a part of me, rejecting to continue. wants to remain hidden and dark=(

sch tml!

2008-10-12T21:10:00.003+08:00

mos on oct 4th. advance cele fr andrew bd. few pics for view and sch starting tml! gees. im shag out now. bye

love you my silly baby!

loves<333~

gloooo?

cake from coffee club. was squeezy so baby only manage to take the pic fr the back -where we are standing-

heart-thro? -spelling error- haha~!

ALL HAIL ALCOHOL!~ oh oh. long live~!

tuesday afternoon

2008-10-07T14:55:00.003+08:00

holiday is coming to its end. feels kinda short, but have already enjoyed myself throughout this holiday i guess =X every morning is a struggle with the super big evil Z monster. damn, and i always give in to it. the thought of having no plans makes you feel sleepy and just wanting to continue to zZz. so there goes my day everyday till 2/3pm. full 12hrs of sleep and i feel sleepy still! arghh~

we had ice cream in day at bugis. enjoy the pics and envy us? HAHA

i swear its bigger than your face~!

oh oh =X

it bigger than my mouth! and its uber shiok and cold! you'll be full after eating the 2 scoop and can forget about the cone -just throw it away-

alrights alrights, thats all folk. for more please stay tune and pray for my good mood to post more pics~ WOOOhOOO~

on holiday

2008-09-27T02:04:00.002+08:00

awww, geraldine away on holiday with mum and sis -envy envy!!!-, flight on wed morning. dont intended to send her off -cos flight at 0805, check in ard 6am- possible if i catch the 1st bus. and she having a thought for me persuaded me to catch more rest at home. -how sweet of her- but... tue night ard 12 mid night or i should say wed morning, javier sms me asking if i wants to send them off? he willing to fetch me back and forth. of cos im willing. so met up with him at ard 0520. had to give geraldine morning call b4 i leave hse and i call javier right after i hang up with geraldine to see if he had reached. so i went down, on the way, reached airport. check the screen for the flight row, and seated down to wait. geraldine sms me b4 leaving hse, as initially i requested her to give me a call b4 she leaves as i couldnt be there to send her off. but now tt i was there alr, i my sank when the sms states - sorry baby, i couldnt call you as im in the rush... ... and so on- on the way i was hoping tt she better not call me as im bad at covering up thing -in short is i dono how to lie=))- haha. so we wait, and wait, and wait... 5 mins gone, 10mins flew, 15mins came and go... javier and i started to feel, eh, what took them so long. so we change seats, when over to directly infront of row 8 and wait. i was looking ard to signs of them every mins. and then just as i turn ard to the gate, i heard gerald's mum voice. hahah. suprise!!! -all thanks to javier for it to happen! thanks bro-

went mos on wed, din take much pic as my phone does not have flash function but i din took a few luh. feel kinda weird as the 1st time club with des, mic, cher, dar -ds ppl- but nevertheless it was definiately fun with me ard! hahah met up with andrew, and a super long time no see secondary sch mate, des -hvn see him for ard 4yrs? yea- tgt with another friend william. we drink and game. hahah. william playing with 3 montfort mates = dead -not really dead but was definiately v high and drunk.i couldnt stop laughing when i thought of the sound at the toilet- *the sound of puking* hahah.

was greeted with 'yarn ga bomb?' -dono how to spell the drink- but it taste nice, where by red bull in a normal glass and a shot of dono what. put the shot glass into the normal glass and start drinking! -slups, sweet- and wisky shot -johnnie w.b- ended up pretty high. well to me, am really not a good drinker and doesnt drink much, usually dance the night away. but tt night was definiately fun. but, with baby ard, it will be even better!=))

and yes, i had few pic of a giant ice cream!!! trust me, and its the biggest ice cream i had ever eaten on the cone -dont compare to the earthquake ice cream-

am lazy to post up the pic, hope i wil do it some time soon! haha. actually was watching youtube 國光幫幫忙, was waiting for it to load so i came to blog as geraldine requested me too. hehehe. alrights, shall stop here and im back to my 國光幫幫忙. byeeee!

ps: baby i miss you. hope you enjoy and have tonnes and tonnes of fun!!!! i received your sis sms, was thinking to reply or not, but i didnt in case it cost and you have to pay? but think i will reply you tml, in case you worry for me=)))) MISSES~!

cycle

2008-09-14T14:41:00.004+08:00

the day was fine, so we went CYCLING! wooo~ my 1st time given to her on this 'couple bike' oh oh. so here's a short post about it.

while riding, i took her hp out while she shouted -what you talking?- scare i will buang the bike. haha. and she enjoy riding with me -also dono whether she got peddle not=(-

take 2

i pass the hp to her and she wasnt scare at all!! -see how enjoy she appear to be-

take 2

and my poor bag got stained with the rusty on the handle bar =(( and i hv yet to clean it=((((((((

on the way out

on the way out 2. i wasnt looking at hotties or cutties! we were at the middle of the path where bike and skate are flying here and there=X

8bucks for 2hrs with 2 bottle of H2O. not bad for a break off and enjoy the scenery~

and she ended and a blue black on her right leg=(( cos she miss e peddle and bang into the bar.

it was definiately fun and enjoying, chat while cycling, it was sure tiring but something i do together with my baby is definiately worth it -wink wink-

enjoy?

2008-09-12T18:51:00.002+08:00

what had happened?im bored yet i survived through rotting at home for the past few day. of the whole week, i have been out for DS only. i was home for the big rest of the time! enjoying my holiday? doubt so=( what have had happened to me man -wondering- gees. *dying*

ohh well. everyday pass by as usual, holiday = living aimlessly thats all -as in for now-

yay, ger has finish her attachment alr! looking forward to some quality and quantity time with her! life pretty much in a mess without her. -dont know why but thats what i felt-

she asleep now, while the decision of meeting and planning lies on my hand. awww.. -any suggestions? please- *blank*

and while im here blogging, my dad snoring is so loud and irritating!

my legs are itchy, i wanna DANCE!! =))

stronger

2008-09-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

i need more faith. im feeling weak. i know i need to overcome this. but i cant seems to save myself on my own. its kinda getting back to what i used to, my own comfort zone. the need to feel the pain. the pain that keeps me alive. its faith or pain~

august 29303101 sept

2008-09-01T15:35:00.003+08:00

happy birthday in advance to you
happy birthday in advance to you
happy birthday in advance to junjie
happy birthday in advance to you ~~

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to junjie
happy birthday to you ~~

happy belated birthday to you
happy belated birthday to you
happy belated birthday to junjie
happy belated birthday to you ~~

happy anniversary to you
happy anniversary to you
happy anniversary to baby
happy anniversary to you ~~

ps: thank you baby for your wonderful! surprise~ *=(=* thanks ykqimvonniesuekt! and i LIKE the cakes and LOVE you baby~!

thursday at home.

2008-08-29T01:01:00.002+08:00

home for the past 3days. beginning to feel lil sick. *home alone* eat slp lappy eat slp lappy. gees. im bored! been waiting for tml, fri, for the whole of this week. heehee. zouk tml! lets party people~

went for hair cut yst, at center point, anthony hair boutiqe, by gerlad cousine, keith. super uber duper satisfy with my new hair style! Wooot~ check me out peeps. haha *big headed*

was home-ed as usual, but i really can no longer stand all the ants and crippy crawling creatures in my house anymore. ever since mum started working, on one is taking care of the house properly! and there grows those insects! *IRRITATING* i vacuum and mop the floor. hoping that this will lessen them but to no avil. cos i just spotted a piece of bread under the sofa! dammit~ cleared it away kill tonnes of ants, and spotted a tiny cockroach. *SMACKED RIGHT DEAD ON THE SPOT* no mercy!

argghhh, get the hell out of my room, out of my house for christ sake! gosh. *feel like a sinner after taking away so many lives*

hope tml will be a great day, everything goes smoothly as planned=)) and i love you all. take care good nights and swt dreams! blehs~!

--------------- End ---------------

finally, exams over!

2008-08-23T15:54:00.002+08:00

exams are finally over. *phew~ not sure if i've really study hard enough for it. everything was done and prepared at the very last minute. *haha/sobs? whatever it will be, done is done. wait for the result till then.

there is this sentence that keep popping up in my mind, *i will never give birth to a child unless im very sure that i can afford and support his everything. because i dont want to restrict him to only something i cant afford and not let him enjoy every other things that i cant give him. this statement was harsh and really impacted on me.

not reasons to be unreasonable each year as you grow older. i used to scream, shout, quarrel, argue... but now, not even a single words wants to escape from it when i open my mouth. dare not to hope because im so afraid of being rejected. cant seems to get over with this rejection over the years. even thought it has been all these years, how am i not get over with it and still fear of it.

seems like the only way to kill it was to 1st kill myself, numbness will solve that very hidden secert part down the bottom of my heart.

i have had clear my doubt for not wanting to celebrating birthday as its just another day out of 364days. what is with all those hope and love that every child has when their big day is approaching? to me, it was just another feeling that has drift further and further aaway from me. the higher you place your hope, the higher the level of disappointment. and disappointment is all and what i've got over these years. guess its time to grow up my boy~

they force you to be independent but yet relunctant to let go of you. *push you down the pool and expect you to master swimming. they see you struggling but leaves you on your own.

1 year older 1 year closer to adulthood. time to think and plan for your future. but times they snap at you, that you have a long way more to go. you should not do these things at this stage, its not the right time for you, you cant handle. they assume times and again, they restricted me times and again, again and again, i swallow it down. thinking that the good days will come soon, just bear with it, just hang in there. thought come to my mind that, it has been this way through the years, what makes them change within a year. they have been this for 20 years, what differences will year 21 do.

reasons to be reasonable = no reasons to be unreasonable

a sudden thought that i dont wish to grow up. hoping that the particular day would never ever come so that i would not have to be reminded with the scar . the hope that i used to carry with me, vanished. dare no to hope any further.

~hope-LESS~ shoudl i or should i not be reminded with this disappointment?

birthday - the day where you endured so much pain just to give birth to me. the day that i should be thankful to both GOD and you, for a day of celecration of a wonderful creation. the years, that left me hurting myself for this day was nothing fulfilling but yet another day. the years that i always told myself, not to celebrate it, for it only reminds me of all the saddness i have suffered alone in the dark. tha day which i used to carry hope for. the day which now i wish will never come!

PICTURE POST

2008-07-30T23:46:00.015+08:00

alright, as promised, today is going to be PICTURE POST~! due to tonnes and tonnes of pics. im unable (actually lazy to type out the captions for every photo, as it is 0130hr now!) my eyes are like @_@ enjoy neway!~ woooohoooo~

junjie?

2008-07-29T23:58:00.002+08:00

~ dont rub salt on wound.

salty eyes.

hate myself.

never like it.

glad you chose to stay,

go if you may.

for everything i deserved.

salt no more!

and i sugar you ='(

again

2008-07-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

yet again. the taste of being left behind. be the one who initiate the sms the call. how am i suppose to react?

silence is golden.

silence is scary.

where everything is just you, you alone, alone!

ITB Lesson

2008-07-14T11:58:00.004+08:00

having ITB lesson (msn/internet lesson) haha. here i am blogging can already infer that .... haha. lalala.

awwww. recently was like a quicksand. the more i struggle the more i sank. i really dont wish to hurt you and upset you=) thanks for your love. i will recover soon!

~your love will take me home~

bad day for baby. hope she can cope and balance her stuff well. dont worry, aunty agony is her to stay=)) haha. tell me what happened ltr ba.

will upload pics when i uber free. *doubting*

what a day

2008-07-08T17:39:00.002+08:00

every morning has been a chore. dragging of feet to toilet. looking at closet then to mine hungry looking wallet that always eat up the money i place in it=(

freezing cold journey in the bus to the west. it felt like needles piercing non stop on the thin layer of your skin that is ever exposure to it. my bag hugged me losely but were of no help. the merciless wind tear us apart soon after.. i fall asleep after i change to another seat. it felt no better. i woke up to realise im reaching my school next stop. YAY HEY~!

okayy. gtg run. baby killing me if i dont stop now. dinner time~

back from hoilday?!

2008-07-07T08:18:00.002+08:00

back from holiday?/ nah. busy and lazy to update my blog. not sure to write now as i have so many things to blog about.

awwwww. i lazy to write future.......

so, BYE~

because of you~

2008-05-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

phew,its been so long since i last update my blog. been way way way busy in school. kinda getting used to 5-4 hours sleeping time. had terrible headaches last week due to unsufficient sleep. oh well.. live goes on.

finally get over with projects! did peer appraisal earlier today. *being curious, start wondering what grade will i obtain?* no good feeling about this at all. well this done and over. i will know when the results is out. *been carefully warn and advise about 'politics' but i cant help to start wondering if ...* junjie you got be more defensive even although they are of opposite sex or might appear to be kind or what so ever. sigh ... remaining quiet doesnt mean i dont know whats going on!

i was never strong even if i was, its just a act of bravery. easily influened. sigh. i hate myself when i cant control myself. im depressed. self infliction is getting worst. beyond control, yet, hesistating to end it. how is this possible? im doing sth real bad to myself but wouldnt end it. how cool? attention seeking huh! i have no idea. whenever, im pissed with myself. the monster within me just grew even stronger. the strong urge to vent it out!awwwww. helpp!

feeling moody with family matters.

always bother by this problem *if you were to read this, yes! its you* as its beyond what i can do. sigh ... hope you get enlightenment in army and pay back to society in future *why do i sound so ...*

enough say, no further details. must i report everything to you?

guess i have been too low on my guards. so much more to update, but my mood is killing me right now. one last thing before i end.

brandon you have your point, but like i say, different perspective will have different point of views. its between moral rights and personal belife and reasons. its hard to convince about sth that is way to personal:) good advice thou.

and MoS was always fun with you around, baby! *because of you*

alright shall end my whatever sucky mood with this post.

1st of may

2008-05-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

01.05.08 time:2254 Location:hougang current mood:tired! boring! missing you!

YAY! sis is back from usa on working trip. obviously why i was happy because i wanna know whether she bought any gifts for me! *HA HA* was glad that she is back safely but only a t-shirt for me *sobs* my jeans!? *awwww. all my excitement and anxiouness on the way to pick her up was all bashed up and dumped into the bin*

neway, on business trip not vacation, so she is forgiven.

pick her up and returned home. took a nap and went to compass point without sis *which has alr sleeping soundly after a wk long without her smelly pillows and blanket* we went out cos mum complaint weather hot, wanna go somewhere with air-con! *how nice, install sir-con in living room luh* hehe. and compass point it is, had lunch? high tea? ya, whatever you name it, i had herbal chicken soup! nice! cos i always love herbal soup!!!!! *and i thought of ms yeo herbal soup post on her blog* miss miss. walk into electrical stall, best or courts *i forgotten* and halfway through *thanks god* tt i remember that i have to search the price of 3in1/4in1/telephone price for my ITB projects! phew~ save me from another trip:))

din meet baby today:(( kinda sad. ermm. NO. am really sad. but would blame her, cos she has project meeting:)) *jia you okayy, pom pom shaking with bum bouncing bouncing* neway, i got things to do too. so, maybe it wasnt tt sucky on not having to meet her today:)) got my MIEC tutorial done, ITB assigment done, portfolio done. not bad yea'*am so proud of myself* haha. research for ITB project yet to do:(( *fall flat back to ground after prasing myself* duh...

awwwww. HUNGRY! cook me a nice supper anyone? fed-ex over to me! *boooo* alrights. gotta go search for food and time to rest my poor eyes after staring at the screen so long:(( poor eyes *dipping eyes drop*

wednesday, 300408

2008-04-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

wednesday, 30 april 2008. time: 2221. location: Hougang.

*intro sounds like as if i oversea* =X

been having super long days in schol for the past 3 days. BSTA make-up lecture on monday 5-7pm, cos thursday holiday. monday afternoon was occupied for project discussion. *phew, kinda rushing but managed to get the basic infomations across and work spilt up proportionally (such a word?)* met up with baby after my lecture *had her to wait for an hour for me. appreciate lots* the day ended with the dinner in school, yong tau hu. hey its nice! *1st time having*

start school on 10am for tuesday. i don have to get up so early! which is like shiok-ness can. *hide under blanket, hugging tedddy* e-learning week for ITB. had lunch break from 12 to 3pm. met with brandon and junbin for lunch. good old times with the montfort boys! *knoding head, feeling proud* went to library for MIEC short presentation discussion. managed to get the article points into powerpoint, but didnt really prepare ourselves on how to present. *maybe an online meeting before fri!* sch ended with BCOMM tutorial at 5pm. but got CCA (dance sport!!) had a short 1hour for baby to finish her class. was uber hungry by the time we met, so i was kinda moody=( but decide to end the rest half of the day on a right note, i took initiative to a simple convo and was glad to put smile back to our face:)) TIME FOR DANCE SPORT. awwww. new steps are definitely confusing when both of us have no idea how to go about doing cha cha. class was v pack, cant get proper view from the demostrations by the seniors. but being promise not to get pissed off or impatient, thus calm myself down, and work things out with our best:)) and FINALLY WE MANAGED TO GET OUR STEPS RIGHT~! wooooo. practise makes perfect yea'. the day ended with the news of getting a pair of dancing shoes at 90bucks=( *ask mother sponsor*

wellness program for my s&w. warm up was like *duh, haven touch the machine and was like, uber tired alr* NP has a nice gym! haha. *how much do i get paid for saying this huh?* oh well, its really nice *have yet to use during peak-hour luh* my class in morning, just a handful of students and us. did fly and chest press? then instructor hint me to start running cos everyone has started running on the treadmill *as if i give a damn to what others doing* but it was this 'there is more cardio training coming up' he said, that makes me go *swollow saliver* okay. i should start running i guess. run 2.4km! in 11mins =( its been real long time since i last run 2.4km straight! *ahem, giving excuses* so 11mins wasnt tt bad right? class ended with the run on treadmill at 9.30am. half an hour to clean and wash up! *gosh, wellness program is the best luh! cos there is shower in the toilet in the locker room!* like the best thing you would ever ask for is a NICE BATHE after you perspire from all those workout:)) CATS after tt and im done with school. wooo! wednesday is the shortest day. join baby and her classmates at our space gameroom for monoploy and HEART ATTACK. i realise i have no problems clicking with them. *applauds for myself. WAVE HANDS* which was kinda relief? as we could mix around easily. it was definitely fun and enjoying time with them! *seriously, its like totally diff from my classmates* maybe my course people are more tense up and less 'playful'. but whatever it is, i will definitely treasure the best of both world! haha. thanks baby~ your mates are great!

PHEWWWW~! uberly long post tonight! *forgive me* im lazy to update regularly. but i think im in a good mood to write such a long post today. because tonight when the clock strike 12 midnight, it will be

MY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY with you baby *love love*

guess, that is why i am in such a good mood even though i am uberly tired now! super long day and tiny winy rest! give thanks for tomorrow, labour day = HOLIDAY. can pig like a pig tomorrow! but wait, gonna wait til i get my important appointment done before i hit the bed flat in 30seconds:))

(sorry, will try to get pictures for my blog. cos i shy to initia cam-whoring with the girls =X) HAHAHAHAHA

LOVE IS IN THE AIR~! *sniff sniff* :))

Hello!!

2008-04-18T14:35:00.009+08:00

I'm blogging for my bf cos he's busy for school, so he ask me to blog for him while waiting for him to finish his classes using his lao ya lappy. Hahahaha. My lappy better loh. LOL :D

Anyway I also feel his blog is dead, so let me help him for once.....

What shall I blog for him? HMMMMMM... We are going town later to hunt for bags. After that he will bring me eat Ding Tai Fung. He hates Ding Tai Fung, so he only will say w/o actions done. Know what I'm trying to say? LOL. Just kidding~

Shall I post photos for him? Let me see what his lappy has.......

A day @ Mos, I cant rmb the date luh.

He doesnt like Mos, but because of me, he's addicted to it. Most of our pictures are taken from Mos luh. Lol....

These were taken from Mos too. Shall stop here, cos his lappy is dying, and I need it for my own entertainment. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. Last but not least....

BYEBYE!!!!!!!!!!

3rd day in sch

2008-04-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

met up with joey and his friend for lunch at c4. haha, they are old students. lol. okay luh. i feel tiny winy old also luh. but... old or young. i just wish my mates are not childish can alr! *please* hahah.

sch is so tiring! esp you go class alone=( cheers to lone rangers~! HAHA. spent a bomb on concession and book. fainting alr ... 2 more days to go til 1st weekend. stil have 3 class tt yet to attend, hope they are interesting and MAKE more friends. sigh. haha. working on sat at paris sir park skating shop. for 6hours from 2 - 8. sigh, money are hard to earn. no work no money. no money no honey~ hehe. [but got baby] HAHAH/ alrights, looking forward to tml's dance sport trails class:)) lets cha cha latin rumba salsa ~ ~ ~

lazy~!

2008-04-13T02:34:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling so lazy to update even thought i have many things to share. HAHAHA.

LaLaLa~ off to sleep.

floorball jersery

2008-04-06T22:38:00.006+08:00

alrights. check out my very 1st jersey from past til now. haha.

-like who cares, anyway-

-1st jersery in primary sch, P5:)

-

-33!!!

-

-mooseboyz 55!!!

-NOKIA

-08!!!

-NOKIA

-11!!!

-SCRF

-11!!!

fr 33 - 55 - 08 - 11 - and i deceided to stick with 11. am looking forward to receive another new jersery with new number. hah. alright, was clearing up my room and saw all the tee's pack in the corner of my drawer. so.. here they are, as i was bored and deceide to shot them down.

night cycling last night, definitely fun and dark! HAHA. had a 'bad' fall? ya. bruises on my right hip shoulder and fist. and ouch! they hurts~ had chicken brayni, not bad, been there and i always order tt:)) sorry marcus, spoil your saddle. sigh. i wil pay for it, don worry.

decided to cut down the allowance for my headphone to paid for the saddle. -pray hard not ex!- so, ya, kinda decide what to get when my pay comes. -WISHLIST, eh, should be confirm getting liao ba, wish? hahaha. [onitsuka tiger shoe, 2 tee's, headphone, contact lens solution] as for bag. don think my pay can be stretched? HAHAH.

ahhhh, sch starting soon. gonna miss having holidays! great fun time at club! geess. when is the next one?! argh. too little alcohol in my bloodstream. HAHA. soon soon!!!

-baby,

do take more care of yourself, for, why the sudden loss of appetite and your aches from the camp. get your body anf health prepare for sch alr okay:)) [worries]

happy 3rd month anniversary and let welcome our 100days anniversary. real soon!!! woooo~

loves
jun-

ohh, and just b4 i end, i miss my colleagues! HAHAH, work is tough and dry and boring, but nevertheless with group of ppl tt willing to look after me.its still the best! haha, like a baby. HAHAHA. but i really miss working with them! meet for dinner okay?

alright, long post today, hope i have mood to update real soon, been very lazy. hehe.

after so long ...

2008-03-21T21:19:00.002+08:00

phew. its been long since i last hit the keys and update my blog. thanks god, i haven't forgot my pw to login. HAHA. school is starting soon and i cant wait man. am uberly tired from working already. am spending my time at work like a walking zombie can! ARRGH~ money can drives people to extreme ends:( awwwwww. am skip work so my payday are so pathetic! provision for bills and i end with A&W to survive till end of month. HAHAHA. ahhh A&W *licking lips* yum yum.

awwww.i miss club! HAHA. gees. WHEN~?~! Woooooo~!

saw creative mp3 w built in speakers. kinda cool. 149$ for 4gb. am considering cos my stupid ipod shuffle aint working! shit man. its been so sucky w/o music during journey(s) *deepppppppp sigh*

AND THE COMING APRIL IS A MONTH OF FUN~! cos work ending march, school starting in april and of all, 2 big celebrations falls in the month of april:)

step up 2 was uberly nice! for peeps who are interested in hiphop dance should catch this show man! its worth the money! *and this is why i miss club-ing* HAHA.

kinda pick back floorball again. was indeed fun when you can relax and not so fucking stressed and tensed up. need to get new equipments if seriously back into floorball. how?

baby,
i appreciate all things you-know-you-have-done for me. real fun time together and hope you seen both the pretty and ugly side of me. HAHA. hope you didnt regret choosing me as your bf *you know i am:))* chill~ we grew up more and wiser each time we went throught the bad, hard, silly, stuipd obstacles. faith and trust are build on understanding of one another. you have my trust and faith, and i place upmost respect on all promises and will by all means comply to it. lets welcome our new beginning for the month of april!
many loves and thanks,
jun

*APPLE BOTTOM JEANS. BOOTS WITH THE FUR ... ~*

long post, . . .

2008-03-06T14:18:00.003+08:00

another day off from work! opps, its UNPL from work! sigh. march payday can go eat A&W already=( no mood to report work today, so i turn off the alarm and cont to zZzZ~ no plans for the day, guess will just slack at home.

dies. i been having this 'i dont want work' feeling! if its not because of them, i also wouldnt be working for march! F**K. i want and i need my space. feels like suffocating when everything just doesnt goes my way. i have my own rules while they have their's. and there is no room for negotiation for me. everything is all one way. it wouldnt be long till i break down and i wouldnt know what will i come up with. im serious with, dont force me too much. i have reach my limits already.

been feeling v troubled recently. concern and worries. that pretty much affect and lessen my appetite for food and couldnt get much zzz too. hvn been eating well hvn been sleeping well, guess that is why i fall sick. sigh ...

floorball on sun night, was kinda fun and uberly tired! was considering picking back floorball when school starts. but... its always full of but's. gonna get new equipments. if i were to continue:)/:( who will sponsor me?

i wanna get my 1st tattoo! its going to be one of my freak out plan, when i cant take them anymore! i urge for freedom when i feel restricted! the fact is im getting old and i know my stuffs even thought you dont accept this fact and still reguard me as a kid. its up to you, mum and dad. i am being myself. you fucking useless unfilial son. im living in 21st century, not trap in the old 80's. if you are resisted to change and adopt the new thinking, am fine with it, then fucking accept the fact that im expose to all this and there is nothing you can do. my choice lies in my own hand, how long are you gonna keep controling me? till you hit the grave? comm'on. im serious sick of all these for the past 7 yrs!

Potential Breakup Song

It took too long
It took too long
It took to long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that
Except for the fact it was my birthday
My stupid birthday

I played along
I played along
I played along it rolled right off my back
Obviously my armor was cracked
What kind of a boyfriend would forget that?
Who would forget that?

The type of guy who doesn't see
What he has until she leaves
Don't let me go
Cause without me, you know you're lost
Wise up now or pay the cost
Soon you will know

You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' with me
You're not winnin' till you're winnin'
Winnin' me
You're not gettin' till you're gettin'
Gettin' to me
You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' for me

This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me

We got along
We got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back

You can send it in a box
I don't care just drop it off
I won't be home
Cause without me, you know you're lost
Minus you I'm better off
Soon you will know

You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' with me
You're not winnin' till you're winnin'
Winnin' me
You're not gettin' till you're gettin'
Gettin' to me
You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' for me

You can try, you can try
You know I know it'd be a lie
Without me you're gonna die
So you better think clearly, clearly
Before you nearly, nearly
Mess up the situation that your gonna miss dearly, dearly
C'mon

You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' with me
You're not winnin' till you're winnin'
Winnin' me
You're not gettin' till you're gettin'
Gettin' to me
You're not livin' till you're livin'
Livin' for me

This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me

This is the potential make-up song
please just admit you're wrong
Which will it be?
Which will it be?

just what's wrong with me? am i wrong seek for what i want?

clear it before everything starts to accumulate.

or just drown myself and get numb and soon everything will be over.

alcohol anyone ? ~

sick!

2008-03-05T14:58:00.004+08:00

am sick again! :( been falling sick often recently. guess its the 'not-enough sleep' that got me. the more i think of it, the more i hate them for not understanding.

im bored and was complaining about nothing to do. thus was being ordered to update my blog, by somebody. HAHAHA.

goodbye feb and welcome mar. march is full of unknown, doubts and emotional feelings. *am as concern and worried as you are for your studies* really hope to see rainbow after the storm.

btw, sch is starting soon. my job at goodrich is also coming to an end, end of march. gonna miss you ppl! HAHA. thou, am close to some and not to some. but having to spent 4 months under 1 roof, there are bound to have mutual feelings for everyone. thanks for all your guidence~ i appreciated lots.

me at work. safty first!!

at mos.

at tcc on cny eve aft sending bb's mum off :) and my 1st time meeting her mum +)

at mos.

baby,

we will always try to talk and work things out. i promise i will change means i will. don worry about upsetting me. i express myself if there were any:) but for now, have fun and enjoy. but always keep in your mind, there no matter what, ill still be worried for and about you. so promise me to take care of yourself okay! both in health and also in ... :) okay?

welcome to our good life~

Loves.
junjie

2008-02-22T21:40:00.002+08:00

LOVE IS WICKED :)

thanks baby for your mail and everything =)

thanks colleagues, for all your help(s) and guidance(s).

thanks kwan for your advice(s) and great convo.

thank you people! for all the positive or negative thing(s) you have directly or indirectly done to me. that makes who i am today. *esp to you, mum and dad, thanks for all these shit you put me through that will forever reminds me how to teach my kids in years to come. THANK YOU SO MUCH*

LOVE IS WICKED :)

having in bad terms with mum and dad, and being a spoil brat. my expenditures are actually more than my earnings =( *MONEY NOT ENOUGH* so, am gonna pull up my socks and work hard for now and e coming month of march. Ahhhh... JunJie you better start saving up!!

attending airshow on sun, hope for fair weather! haha. i dont intend to sun-tan. comm'on its not sentosa =( and thanks baby's mum for the tix =) follow by dinner at baby's grandma hse. oh dear, i better not disgrace myself? haha. well, am looking forward to have dinner with them actually =) Good Luck ~ ! ;)

thanks baby.

hello.

2008-02-21T22:02:00.002+08:00

Haa-chuuuuu~ im down with cold! haa-chuuuu~ =( shouldnt have sleep with aircon last night.

baby loves~!

2008-02-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

LOVE YOU BABY~

we are happy e way as we are now. loves :)

[remember my promise=)]

and our date!!!

no one~!

2008-02-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights

I don't worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
I'm telling you that

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
Oh oh oh...

sorry blame it on me

2008-02-09T14:59:00.000+08:00

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

where am i?

2008-02-09T02:24:00.000+08:00

alright, i gonna put everyone else aside and have just me and my pride over this post.

so where do i stand in your heart? dont wanna quarrel? consider your tone and the way you speak to me, sounded as if am in the wrong and being questioned. i dont like it either. it happened not once but more than fingers could count and not well at expressing aint always a good reason. people will learn and change.

i aint good at talking or expressing myself to other people either. however i know that for people to understand me, i have to open up. im picky over friendship. i trust only to those who are important to me. if i give you my trust, don ever take it for granted.

one side is friends another side is girlfriend. coming from a all boys school. i aint got any idea how to tackle this problem either. im just struck.

its time whereby i will just be either good or bad, not half-half of both anymore. friends or foes. the rest fuck off!

im feeling real sucky right now.

[whatever you want, you have it. whatever i want, we quarrel, but ill still have it]

i still dont feel good after pouring all this out, i guess there are still much more exploit contents that i really dont wish to spell it out. things aint good if it has been put straight to the face.

it would be nice if i could just click and change my mood mode.

this is a selfish post for me and myself.

fuck you people!!

2008-02-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

alrights, am supposed to be or stay happy during CNY. but, i feel like sucky right now.

fuck you people!

ill skip the details.

IM JUST DISAPPOINTED. uberly disappointed in you.

learn to express yourself and dont expect me to keep expressing myself.

i'm tired.

sobs ...

you could put the blame on me :))

2008-01-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

check out my new blog song~ SORRY BLAME ON ME :))

baby didnt send me this song cos she thought that i wouldnt like emotional song? but she still send and to my suprise, it was uber nice! *touching, [my opinion]*

things have pretty much settled down, but there are still some grey areas to take note and learn about each other. quarrelled, make up, move on. the making up is sweet and the quarrel is sour. i'm sorry my sweetest.

~ thanks for putting up my 'attitude' and changed your temper ~

this week has been tiring *as usual* haha. went for new hair cut. which left me dumbfound? cos i was like, okay, i dont know what to cut, i wish to keep it short. so had my hair wash and waited, and waited, and waited *it was cold can! :X* 10mins later, finially, like the hairstylist started to cut. didnt had my lens on, so was 'blind' through out the whole process, but could kinda figure out here and there though. HAHAHA. outcome was suprise? shocking? dont know? HAHAH.not his fault since i say i leave it totally to him. but, he sure sucks big time man! HAHA. guess you can already sense my mood over my new haircut! arghh~

was feeling really tired yst, turn in around 10 and still overslept this morning. fortunately, i have a colleague who bike and was willing to fetch me to work:)) was still pretty much feeling uber tired and sleepy now. guess i have to rest early tonight again but i miss on phone with sweetie:((

tml is thursday!! darling is off from work! and its 31th jan~ fri will be 1st feb!! WOOOO~! taken off on fri, am planning for that day :)) rem our date sweetest!

You Could Put That Blame On Me~ LURBLURBLURB :))

crazy pic post`

2008-01-27T13:39:00.000+08:00

look at me in my eyes and be frank with me.

,@@ vs @@,

alrights i supect my baby is suffering from seriously illness ...

'mushroom head!' HAHAHA

'be afraid' she will hunt you down~

'cried! cos i bully her?' LALALA

'ah kiao, james and peter, loves shawn'

'she claims tt she is pual too-hill?! @@

'losers go home'

'WHO IS THAT GIRL'

and soon, i become affected ... ...

'i beginning smiling unknowingly'

'and get excite over things easily'

'and swing as if on a see-saw'

'seems like it got worsten, cause i thought i could scare ppl off' Boooo~!

'i think this should work!!! ROARS~

and we went crazy together ... ... ...

'hahaha'

'hahaha'

'hahaha'

'am trying to read her mind'

'and i realise i cant ...'

'she has gotten into me' *help! help!*

'RUN! she hunting for next victim!'

'i tot i was eating kfc'

'it grew worst'

'to a point of beyond any hope'

'speak no evil' those who utter her name shall die!

BoooHooooHoooo~

and i have fallen ill since then ... ... ...

'BLEH'

'high on alcohol'

'HAPPY NEW YEAR'

'WEEEEEE'

' ... ... '

*runs and hides*

she gonna kill me!!! she gonna kill me!!!

because she found out i have been kissing her

'opps' wanna see the real thingy? dream on. Boooo~!

and ... me kissing other guys

'MUACKS'

=( im bored on a fine sunday afternoon!

~ love make peace ~

2008-01-27T11:35:00.000+08:00

am addicted to club~ well perhaps its the boring/tiring work on the weekdays and the joy of getting to spend time with my love one over for the weekends, suggested for extra effort to spice things up!:))

@ mos, sat 19th jan.

'surp surp'

'weeee~weeee'

'babybaby'

'she was piggy back-ing me!!' WAHAHAHAHAH~

dj sho'down @ MOS, thurs 25th jan.

'MOS'

'wiskey dry'

'cheers cheers':))

'chivas green tea' WOOOO~! loves and hates. HAHA~

LOL~!

<---- that way @@,

i sure cant take it thru the night~ LOL!

@ RC, toastbox.

'emo & ???'

. . . HAHAHA ~

pancakes are nice~!

in pain! o pleasure?

hungy monster~ ROARS~

the day end with e bill and a cramped tummy![@@,] :X HAHAHHA.

random at fashion bar and prata shop.

fashion bar~ (fucking puke-ed ppl) WAHAHAHAH.

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at some i-dono-where prata shop :)) after moive 19body (twisting storyline)

[love is in the air.

peace is in the air.

made me floating in love and peace~!

LURBLURBLURB!~]

Wooooo~!

2008-01-16T19:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO~! miss my blog? LO~L! alright, IM SICK:( am still not fully recovered yet luh! sigh. GOD please heal me!!~~ taken 4days off from work last week and i have been like uberly lazy to work!! DIES. no over-time and still took leave. PAY DAY REALLY EAT GRASS liao lor:( *baby you must work harder to feed me already!* WAHAHAHAHA

went shopping on last sat. HAHAHA. uber long since last proper shopping!! this time round was totally different cos is with you BABY *opps* love the surprises and hate the feeling of been bluffed'! WHAHAHAHAHA~ MUST BE ALERT next time! ARGH=Z

went drinking despite still having uberly bad cough! HAHAHAHAHA. was already like seriously no voice and i still drink, and its with ICE somemore! am totally voiceless the next day can:( *was told i got sexy manly voice during that night* wth?

lousy drinker?! HAHAHA/ *PUKED LIKE FUCK-ED* WAHAHAHAHAHAHA. luckily got excuses of being sick:X *opps*

so much things have changed!:) hope its a something good in the year of 2008.

LURBLURBLURB~ :)) *rem our date* Woooo~!

sick sick sick sick ! ! ! !

2008-01-10T16:10:00.001+08:00

i gonna eat grass for my coming pay day!:( took 4 unpaid leave luh! cos am still sick! speechless. I HATE FALLING SICK~ well, i have been living like a pig! sleep eat sleep eat and sleep and eat. and i just doesnt grow fatter!@@

argh! weekends is coming! please get well J!

feels good to skip work, but its uber boring when there is nothing to do at home and mind keep thinking about pay shrinking!! HAHAHAH.

IM BECOMING MORE AND MORE LAZY!!!!!!!!! [:)?/:(?]

missing you~ :))

sick sick sick :((

2008-01-08T16:16:00.000+08:00

alrights, guess all the tiredness and stress acculmated up from all the over-nights parties and hanging out and IM SICK NOW :((

terrible headaches on last thur during, took 2 panandol extra and continue working. felt better but beginning to feel feverish! had dinner and took mum's fever tabs and went straight to bed. felt better the next morning, so decided to head for work *cos i doesnt have any MC o whatever so. hence its condsider as unpaid. am not working much O.T and still taking unpaid, gonna really eat grass*. gotten lil complaint from baby, for going to work, despite being not well. sorry baby~ :(

tot i was really and already okayy over the weekends until sunday night! my dry throat became dry bad cought tt i counldnt even catch my sleep properly. of cos, i didnt work the very next day. went to doc, said i 'over-work-ed' :)) well its actually the party and late outtings that makes me sick! not the work? HAHAAH. oh well, whatever. *crazy being happy over this*

met up with baby for her very 1st tattoo. NICEEE~! so when do i get my done huh!!! argh!~ sigh. not so soon not so soon J. *cos i wish to get it done on some special date*:)) well, will want to get tongue piercing 1st instead of tattoo, am afraid i did it out of impulse. furthermore, im so fickle minded~ LALALA. hahaha. okay, back on track, yeps, its was nice! am glad he had his ideas of doing rather than your's initially all black design! *phew~!* her sis and bf came over, and had dinner at thai express. i couldnt really enjoy e dinner as i was like UBERLY SICK! terrible headache! since was outside with them, decided not to be spoil spot and continue with e dinner. head straight home after dinner~ gees. good thing to have baby's companion for the trip home. :)) thanks baby!~

it sure sucks big time to fall sick! argh~! get well soon J!! there are many things awaiting for you to accomplish~ and take care well don let people worry for you anymore! thank you~~

remembering 01.01.08

2008-01-04T18:36:00.000+08:00

(,^^) 01.01.08 (^^,)

WOOOOO~ say goodbye to singlehood and HELLO to ~~~~~ *fill in the obvious blank*=)

countdown at MOS was surely a wonderful experience, yeps, it was packed. but of cos, having planned to ask her the 'special question' on 1st jan 08. what else can get me more anxious and excited! ROARS~

fortunately she ended work earlier than expected so headed straight down to Q and managed to squeeze into the 1st 300, so the tix was only 25$ Weeeee~

music was real nice atmosphere was uber great.

but i have yet to open my mouth to her =X hahah. cos it was like 5plus in the morning! and it to go with a present when am going to ask. so the day ended with a 'BIG WALK' from river valley to orchard plaza and home from there=) *is tired de lor!*

met up for dinner tt evening and by then i have gotten my presents ready! HAHA. *sorry baby for presenting the flowers to you just outside the bank. SCREAMS, so paiseh*

~'Geraldine are you willing to be my girlfriend?'~

and finally, on 01.01.08, a pair of new young couple is born. we are offically together~ NICEEEEE *good things are worth the wait*

many have told me that being single is much better than being attached. well, i guess its to each of his own. cos, to me, i love and prefer to be in relationship. yes, there are bound to be more unecessary problems and troubles to handle in a relationship. but there are also much more great things that one being in single cant enjoy! *let leave out flints, i don play such games*=X

and thanks 'lao shi' for what you wrote in your blog! ill remember it in heart=)
*its so meaningful*

[to: BABY,

lets lay back and enjoy our life to our fullest while we can! dont stress things up and try to follow the flow. all good things comes to an end. an ending also marks a brand new beginning. start a race with a brand new start to an end? or start a race to a brand new ending! will treasure you before everything comes to an end=)
will fight for every of our rights!

baby thank you, thanks for being the one who bring so much new 'experience' to me. am afriad that i might be even more childish as compare to you. HAHA=))

SIMPLE AND PEACEFUL *is all i wish for*=))

BABY LOVES~
jun]

picture post

2007-12-30T17:43:00.000+08:00

zouk.

marcus, Z, J, yeowkiat, yihan

KT, Z, sueann, J

Z, Gerald, J

yeowkiat, Gerald, J

sueann, J

J, KT

ice cream chef.

OMG! am craving for ice creams!!

'ah giao', 'james', 'peter' and [WE LOVE SHAWN!!] HAHAHA

MOS.

gerald, Z, J

geral, Z, J [ROARS]

gerald, Z, J \/^^\/

gerald, Z, J [HAHAHA]

Z, J [sad cos you didnt turn up?]

parkway, starbucks.

gerald [alone again]

gerald [no smoking!]

surp surp

weeee~

train.

J, gerald

random.

after dinner at swensen's

MOS. LURBLURB~

while waiting for bus

on bus ><

while waiting for bus

(^^,)

been very lazy to put everything into words. picture explains all, yea'/

: i just want everything to be over soon. all i want is you and nothing else. i understand that as long as all these are not solved, we can never be peaceful. we both know what we want, dont we?

LURBLURBLURB~

hello!

2007-12-30T01:35:00.000+08:00

hello! loving my new life now~ thank you!

LURBLURBLURB=)

and i hate quarrellings! Weeee~

i dono

2007-12-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

hate the feeling of being not known/unknown/not familiar with things or people. just couldnt fit myself in-to it when i feel that way.

one of the most frequent asked question is 'jj why are you so quiet?'

am actually a quiet person? haha. perhaps its only that i talk more to close friends over hi-bye friends. so be glad that if am sharing with you my feelings=)

uber hectic? living life to fullest! - yst. head for floorball at valhall straight work. had dinner at a food centre hub at old airport road? yea. day din end with that, home and head down to zouk! WOOOOOO~

UBER FUN~ was feeling heavy muscle aching tis morning luh! HAHA. floorball and dance non stop like HIGH ON LIQUEUR. HAHA. let club again people!

MISSES~ =)

2007-12-20T17:44:00.000+08:00

[its ridiculous, its been months and i just cant get it over us ...]

am fuckking sensitive and couldnt help with it =(

hate saying 'i dont know' but now, i felt like i have to reconsider. am always affected by what you say.

[Well all my love I give it to you girl, my life I'll live it with you girl
Worth more to di I man than a diamond and a pearl
So just give it to me girl, and a live it with me girl...
I wanna rock your world]

that makes us what we are and who we are. [but does it imply that we remain ths same or change to be someone better]

ridiculous, sensitive. ended up crushing big time. [do i get less sensitive and you be less ridiculous]

[Mi give it to you [GIVE IT TO ME!]
Give it to you [GIVE IT TO ME!]
Give it to you [GIVE IT TO ME!]
Mi give it to you [AAAAHHH!]
Mi give it to you [COME ON, COME ON!]
Mi give it to you [COME ON, COME ON!]
Mi give it to you [YO, YO, YO , YO!]]

[the following text; could not be display] deleted, because i didnt want a 'complaining' blog'.

[i cant wait to fall in love with you. you cant wait to fall in love with me. it just cant be summer love]

[Well everyday mi see you with you, girl, and a walk and a pass me
Aks keep a bit and yuh shape it a lost me
Anyting you waan, my girl if you aks me,
nuh matta what a cost me]

be more understanding? be more accomdating? and be less sensitive!

am just having too many question marks in my mind right now and just doesnt know what could i say

YOU ARE ALL I HAVE =)

and ITS ALL ABOUT YOU =(

beautiful sunday!

2007-12-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

YO YO YO ~! !~ YO YO YO

work has been occupying the big half of my time. at least am busying working and MONEY MONEY rolling in my pocket! WOOO~!

and giving time to miss one another! ROARS~ HAHA.

am feeling uberly high! BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY!

[sniff sniff] X'mas is COMING! TONNES OF LOVE TO SHARE! :)

working life

2007-12-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

been so busy with work? NO, should be hvn been catching enough sleep for both work and baby. went working today *YAY sunday double pay, uber shiok luh!* waiting for pay day! DIES. hvn get pay already planned how to spend liao! HAAH. must save up lor. *one more mouth to feed* WAHAHA. nah, your assets is my assets, mine assets is MINE assets! LALALA~ hah. enjoyy having dinner with baby after work. thought its just mearly a short meet up, still, appreciate lots. happy working baby~ thanks baby! LOVES~ hehe ;)

ahhh. i wanna club! HAHH.

[below is a short personality quiz, from face book!] enjoy~ WOOOOO~ :)

Temperament
Cosmopolitan
When you wake up in the morning, you set out to impress and to make a lasting impression on those who you encounter. You surround yourself with all the right people and right things - making you a real trendsetter. Others admire and want to be just like you. Second best will not do - it's the best (and only the best) for you. You are attentive to detail in yourself, your surroundings and your social circle.

Interests
Fashionable
Sophisticated, glamorous and experienced. You love everything that is new, fashionable and in vogue. Others admire you, but can't always relate to you since you are a real diamond in the ruff. You like to be two steps ahead of everyone else when it comes to the latest and greatest trends. It could take your counterparts years to adopt your current trends. You just seem to know what's "hot" before everyone else does.

Amusement
Adventurous
It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.

Passion
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.